Can you be someone else?

What we talked about in English class, was related to Irish history, where the British was Protestants and most of Ireland, Catholic. Soon, a border was formed arond the 5 Ulster counties, and divided Ireland into two, the Ulster part called Northern Ireland. The teacher brought up a topic. "Is it possible to convert to another religion?" One of the reasons it is difficult to convert is because of family members. You can not just abandon your dear family and convert to another religion all by yourself. I thought to myself, "Is it possible to totally change your character?" I believe..... yes. You can, definitely. However, the best thing to do is to be yourself. Nothing is better than being original and standing up for something you believe in strongly. For the people around the world that are acting and pretending, please just be yourself. Acting and pretending is not worth it, because you NEED to live life well.

What if? Anything's possible.

There is always a what if in life. I once saw on the internet, "life has an 'if' in it." L'if'E. Of course, it is bad to doubt life. However, people always think of it. Also, think about in literature. I love literature and stories. (irrelevant!) Even for the fairytales we all read when we were little. What if? For example, in little mermaid, what if the mermaid had just killed the prince and was turned back to a mermaid? Well, then the story would not contain a universal theme, which is being selfless for love. What if the hunter in snow white had killed her instead of letter her go? Well, then there just wouldnt be a happy ending. In life, you also may dwell on your past. You ask, what if, i had not done the act? Well, if its something bad you did that you wished you hadnt, well, lets just say your life would be much easier without the guilt. Now, this what if turns into a "if only." If only I hadnt done that. Well, everyone has imperfection in their lives. What is important is not to dwell on the past, and look toward the possibilities and your bright future. Don't dwell on the past and suicide. Just live on. Do I need to look up some inspirational quotes for examples? I dont think I need to. Because like I had already stated, everyone has a bright future, just endeavor, and nothing's impossible. Okay, I put up my hands in surrender, here you go, an imspirational quote, "Look at impossible, it says, ' I'mpossible,' 'I'm possible.'" So people around the world (AND ME) remember, YOU ARE POSSIBLE. ANYTHING'S POSSIBLE. JUST DO IT. LIVE LIFE WELL TO THE FULLEST. LIFE IS SHORT. TIME IS TOO VALUABLE. YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE. GO PEOPLE! LIFE YOUR LIVES! (that includes you, missy! - ignore me, i'm talking to myself)

Evil Net

You know these days, people see something interesting and new, they go, "This is so going on facebook." I think it is really interesting. I mean, those interesting things, yeah well, its fine if you put them on to let everyone know about it. For example, a new generation of nano is out, or a new IOS update or something. Also, maybe you fell and a snail was right infront of your nose. Okay, they are funny things and many of your friends may like your post. However, if two people have private joke or something, you should not post on it. Other people can see it, and then they might "like" it because they know you. Then you go all mad and say, "I dont even know him/her well!" I mean come on! We're all on the internet. Everything we do online is all public, our every little action is recorded. Okay, maybe not when we're like switching tabs, (or is it?) Anyways, you get my point. Everything online is not personal anymore, that's why the internet is dangerous. Espeically where all the dangerous credit card numbers are inserted. Also, social networking sites are dangerous because everyone can view your profile and information. Well even this blog is dangerous. Okay, not so much dangerous. It's public. SO BE CAREFUL OF THE EVIL "NET."

Can't fall asleep! Some solutions....

Dont people say, "Your love is my drug?" Well, this morning, I woke up and I was like, "Sleep is my drug." I mean, seriously, it's like I have insonmia or something. I just can not fall asleep at night! I try many sleeping positions, lie on my side, face up, face down,and just keep fidgeting in my bed. I just can not fall asleep easily. People who fall asleep in like 5 seconds after they lie on their beds are considered very very very extremely lucky people. However, I am also sure there are other people around the world like me, having hard times falling asleep. What are the solutions? Counting sheeps? That never, ever works. Imagining you are in a peaceful place? No. My imagination turns that into a story, which I never finish making, but takes an hour or so. Listening to a song? No. Songs actually keeps you from sleeping. Well, those are my ways which never work for me, but perhaps these solutions may work perfectly for others. Well, lucky them.

Maxims and music

Today morning, a classmate was playing with a software that creates music. I asked him what it was called because I was so amzaed at such an advance peice of technology. It dazzled me. It blew my mind. I dont know how it worked. My classmate was simply making music! I was so amazed at what he was doing. So as soon as I got home today, I downloaded the software and started trying out the software. However, it is too high techn for me, I didnt understand a thing that was going on. I wonder how that peice of software even worked. Clicking and dragging continued for hours on ends. Fortunately, there was a tutorial video, but it was only for a small part, it did not teach the users how to function everything else. I assume that the software is only for musicians that know alot about creating music. However, I am not going to be discouraged by not being able to figure out how to operate a music creating software. I know that I can create music. There are many forms of creating music. There is one with instruments, vocal, and even beatboxing. Also, the company Sony's motto is "every moment has its music." So yes, my conclusion, is that there is always another way. There is always a way to solve a problem. A door closes, another opens.

Analogies

Arent analogies amusing? Our history teacher does analogies all the time. Everytime the teacher makes an analogy, the class explodes in roars of laughter. For example, today, our history teacher had said: "How can you not get an essay right? It's fine if this time you forget your footnotes, its just like coming to school without your shoes. But if you didnt write a three part thesis, its like coming to school in just an underwear." Also, he stated why arent the people following their outlines. His analogy for it was that a person A asks a person B to buy things for him at 7-11. So person B jots down a list of things to buy on a paper, and he just throws the list away, and goes to 7-11 and buys nothing person A asked for. It was a funny analogy. Analogies are very important because it makes the point stated more clear, connects to the larger world, and it is what makes peoples' lives more amusing. (see? there is a three part thesis, RIGHT THERE! ok it was a sucky one but you get the point) Also, our MUN teacher, (also our history teahcer) had stated that analogies are important in speeches. I need to endeavor to make up more analogies. Practice makes perfect!

PD day!

Perhaps I am going to repeat myself quite a few times, but I am just simply so excited about the PD day. PD a.k.a PROFESSIONAL DEVEVLOPMENT DAY. As elementary kids, we were taught that PD day is when a teacher studies the teaching material. So till this point, I still believe is a "school day" for teachers. I love this day because not only we students get a day off, we see the teachers suffer from studying, like what students always do! Well, I'm not going to lie, I actually like studying. I love studying! I am just not hard working. Isnt studying the eaiest thing in the world? At least it's not as difficult as basketball, which you really have to physically work for it. At least studying is easier, you simply mentally work for it. Thinking! Think think think.

Just the right Genre: I heart MUSIC

What genres of music do you like? These days, I am so into pop punk and alternative rock! I am in love with bands like faber drive (suggested by a friend), all time low, and simple plan. I love them so much. I finally found the right genre for me! I am so giddy. I always have this happy feeling in my heart when I have something new, like a new book. However, the new found love for pop punk and alternative rock songs is so refreshing and fortunate. I simply love music. I need music to live. Music makes me happy. Muisc is my life. It simply is. I love composing too, though I'm still a beginner in composing. So back to the bands I admire. Faber drive, their song called "I'll be there" is good, for example. I am so in love with music! However, I still have to remind myself, school is the most important thing now.

Vows to the World.

In my essay for Expository Writing, which the topic was "Personality," I wrote about persistence and determination. I have had perfect examples for my essay,however, in real life, I am not as persistent as I described myself to be. Actually, these days, I am anything but persistent. My promises, I never keep. My vows, I constantly break. I dont know why I keep doing this. Have you ever been in the same situation as I am in now? Feel like your worlds spinning too fast, and out of control? Just because you can't organize your life well? I have to keep reminding myself, life is short, so I have to quickly wake up and start living life well. However, I can't bring myself to action these days. The promises and vows that I would grow taller, be in shape, stay smart. But I keep breaking those promises! I sleep too late, don't exercise, don't study hard. What's wrong with me. Moreover, what's wrong with my temper? Where did my self esteem go? Where's my dignity? Where is my kindness? Pride? Persistence? Where is my life? My life is out of control.

Here, today, for the last time, I promise, to the world, I am going to grow tall, be in shape, be smart and kind. I promise. I swear. I vow to be persistent.

Because this is online, on Blogger, this is public now. I have just made my vows to the world. I'm going to prove to the world that promising yourself for the zillionth time won't work. You simply have to promise to the world, like I have just done. World, I have just promised something really big, and I swear I am keeping it. World, just wait and you'll see.
You say, "Why is this blog entry relevant enough to be online?" It is because, I'm important. I am going to be the next global leader. So are you. You are important too. See? My pride and dignity is back. So may yours be.

Let's TALK

Today, in our English class, the teacher breifly mentioned about tone, diction and mood. As a writer wannabe, I was deeply awed by how authors have different, individual, unique tones. Tones are attitude toward subject, audience and characters. Tones are created by diction, or the writiers choice of words. So, my choice of words huh..... As for me, I dont really think I have a distinct tone, which is very depressing. For my two closest friends, they have distinct tones and I love them. One is a mix of sarcasm and casual, another is playful and sincere. I love them! However, I am in the middle. I don't have a distinct tone. Is it because I'm not paying close attention to the subject? No, that's not it. I pay very close attention to my subject. I pay very close attention to the character, which is me. However, I dont really "TALK" to the audienes. Oh no. Does that mean I am a self centered person? I sure do hope not. However, this is a blog, I can not discuss what to post with a 100 other people. I really dont know where this is going. So, should I refer more to the audiences? Should I ask more rhetorical questions? (By the way, I am asking one right now.) I should talk more. By talk I mean "talk" to the audience.

Think twice before action? No, thrice!

Today, I was searching for inspirations. Inspirations for what? For the journal of course! However, I failed to find a topic. Sigh, However, many things happned today. The first thing I'm going to talk about is my careless actions. This is another example of me, acting before I think twice. I think I act too much on the impulse, never think of the concenquenses that follows. So, today in PE class, because I twisted my ankle, I had the ice. Soon, i figured the ice wasnt really helping, so i played around with it. Then, a friend came by, and started play the ice around with me. However, soon, the joke went way too overboard and I threw the ice without thinking twice. Worse, the ice missed my friend, and instead flew right infront of two serious-looking friends. I said sorry, but they sort of glared at me. Well, they actually just looked at me. However, I know I shouldn't have done that. I almost injured someone! Gosh, I dont know what i was thinking. I know I have done countless mistakes over the years, and still, I didnt get rid of my imprudent habit of acting on an impulse, without thinking twice. My habit is worse than everyone else's, so for me, I think I would have to think thrice, before action.

Music is my life

I wished I had a better, more interesting topic to share with you guys. Sadly, I don't. Well, I twisted my ankle yesterday, and I walk funny, but that's not really important and interesting. It's actually pretty painful. Anyways, today, we had orchestra. Music reminds me that yesterday, I fell in love with the song, "The one that got away." This song is about a breakup of a couple. Setting aside the lyrics, i personally think that the melody alone is sad. Isn't music wonderful? I've always admired people who say, "Music is my life." How I wish I could say that! However, it just doesnt come out of my mouth? Have you ever had a time where you wish for something but it just doesnt work? Psh, of course, then there is the grades..... you wish you could get higher grades but you can't! However, my main concern is music now, of course my primary concern is grades, but they are going fine, it could be better, but its fine now.  Music is wonderful, really. When you listen to any type of music, there is always the mood, different moods are happy, sad, or mysterious. I love music, and i know that I should practice more, in order to say, "Music is my life."

Being yourself: Fake it!

Being yourself makes who you are. Being yourself is a part of your identity. Being yourself is equivalent to your personality traits. Can a person change over time? Surely yes, but do they change alot? How? Something happened to me in middle school, and I became the person i am now. The thing that happened to me isnt anything bad, I dont even know what it is! What was it that made me, not me? I really can't remember. However, isnt it very cliche and commonplace in stories and movies, where two best friends reunite and one is drastically changed? Well, that pretty much sounds like me right now. I want to be back to the old me, friendly, quiet, thoughtful. I want to get out of me that is obnoxiously loud, constantly screaming that disgusting high-pitched scream. What should i do to get back to the old me? Endeavors? I've tried, but i guess not hard enough. Is there anyone else out there that is in a similar situation and feel the same way that i do? I've heard of this quote in a book, "Fake it until you make it." Well, I guess that's exactly what I'm going to do from now. Fake it.

High and Low?: The Heart rules the mind

What do you do first? The things of higher priority first or low? Of course the higher priority, you would say. However, me? Needless to say, of course I would reply the same, but by heart does not follow my mind, or is it the other way around? Well, what i'm trying to say is that even though i know that i should do the things with higher priority, but i end up finishing up the lower priority things then, at last, around midnight, start doing the things with higher priority, like studying for tests, for example. Sigh, I should stop doing that. My mind does not follow my heart. Since we come across this, lets think about it. Mind follow heart? Or heart follow mind? Hmm...... well, before that, I have another question, does your heart rule you, or your mind? I believe, that your heart gives you conscience, tells you what's wrong and what's right. However, your mind may tell you otherwise. People get into trouble, and i'm not saying its a bad thing, because people make mistakes at least once in their life. Whether intentionally or not. However, for the intentional mistakes, the mind takes over the heart, the conscience. So, i think following the heart, conscience is better. So from now on, I should follow my heart. Just like everyone else in the world is now.

The Day after tomorrow

There was this movie called "The Day after Tomorrow," released back a long while ago. It was released when I was in second grade or first. Anyways, the first time I watched the movie was at school, or on the school bus, my memory is hazy about it. However, that particular day, I had a squeamish feeling, so I felt kind of sick. So, I did not get to watch the movie properly, therefore regarded it as a lackluster movie. Then, after a few days at home, my family watched it. My family was like "Oh, this movie is really good, you should definitely watch it." However, I used lied that I did watch it before (which wasnt true) and that I didnt like it. However, till this day, I am curious about the plot. I only remember this part where there was a hail and many people died. However, I am very zealous about watching it, so I may as well just download it and watch it during the weekend. Right now, what is uppermost in my mind, is that I can not wait for the day after tomorrow. I have so many homework due, and a speech to present tomorrow, that I can not wait until it is friday afternoon. Oh, how I wished it was a friday afternoon, till then, I would have to be really focused and hardworking.

Memories are about to be made: 25

First, I wrote "Eventful day" for the post title, but I deleted it because I always end up having a different title whenever i finish an entry. Personally, I think this is really awesome, because that means I think while I type. However, today I think I'm just going to stick with what eventful, important things happened today. So, for some reason, i was very energetic and excited today. After English class, during history class, I was especially cheerful. Perhaps it's because we finished the vocabulary test in English? I really don't know for sure. However, I was really happy. Then, other eventful thing happened. I was really excited to get our jerseys for basketball. I couldnt believe our luck! The original team members already got their jerseys. We get our jersey number in order. So the last original member had the number 20. So, this time, our numbers we in the 20 range. Michael Jordan and Kobe Bryant! (Which is 23 and 24) Well, our coach left out the number 23, he said it was because of the pressure? I'm not really sure. However, my friend got the number 24, while i wished that i got the number. However, like our coach said, we make our own memories of the number we get. So, I got 25. It wasnt bad, I like the number. Perhaps because there is a 2? My birthday is in feburary. Yes, now it's up to me to make the valuable memories with the 25.

Different view points: The World Spins

It's funny, how people have different view points. I mean, we are all human beings afterall, why are we having different view points? For example, some girls like the color pink, at the same time, some girls hate it. I dont understand, we are all girls, why dont we all like pink? Also, for guys, I know every single guy likes the color blue. However, I think this also have something to do with assumptions and stereotypes. So, back to literature, my favorite topic! So, after reading a story, people have different points of view. Some might say, "I hate that character? Why did they do that?" While others might say, "What s/he did was right! S/he had to! I love that character, what are you talking about?" It's really funny how people think differently, but that's what keeps the globe rotating. If everyone had the same ideas and view points, there would be no global leaders, there wouldnt even be Communism! Say, doesnt that kind of world sound peaceful. Yes, but also boring! Because different people have different view points, new ideas are presented out to the world and the world improves more and more everyday.

Careless Mistakes: "The Necklace"

Today, i would like to talk about 2 things. First one is the math test we are going to have tomorrow. Our midterm week was over last week and everyone was celebrating and being lazy as if there is no tomorrow. However, there is a tomorrow, and we are having a math chapter test. Thank the lords that we arent having a math midterm, though i really like math. However, i simply detest the pressure being felt before midterms. I detest midterms, too. Actually, I detest myself. I knew that I could have gotten a higher score. I simply hate myself for making mistakes. Secondly, I read "The Necklace" again, in our english textbook. I've at least read the story 4 times now. Everytime i finish reading the story, I feel such depression and sadness for the main character that I dislike the author very much. However, as I rethink it over, it is actually the main character's fault. If only she hadnt been so careless, then it would have saved her from the 10 years' hard work. The careless mistake topic conjures up the incident where i left my laptop in the history classroom. Oh no. A careless mistake. Pray to the lords no one took it. I swear, or at least swear to try not to make any careless mistakes again. Not on any test, nor in life. This brings us to another topic. In books, author creates characters based on how they would really react in real life. So reading books and understanding characters help readers with how to face life. That somehow seems to make connections between me and "The Necklace," but no more of the careless mistakes!

New Quarter: Expecting the Unexpected.

Next week, is the start of the second quarter. I think today I should talk about school subjects. My favorite subject in school is math. Let's take science as an example. On the first lesson of the first chapter, said "Science is always changing." No human being could ever guess how I detested that very sentence. Why change? I dont understand. Also, in English class, why do we have to analyze the story? Why do we have to think of the signs in the story? Why do we have to analyze poems? What if the poem is just the way it is? What if a shattered piece of glass on the floor, does not mean a broken heart, but merely stands for a careless mistake? I dont want it to be so confusing, I would like a real answer! However, I figured that life works the same way. There are never specific answers, always the unexpected. However, unexpected in life, is always be exciting  and refreshing, and that's what keeps people going! Expecting the unexpected. However, in school, I personally dont like the unexpected. That's the mean reason I like math. Also, I like history too. History has a definite answer. No one can get on a time machine and change history. Weirdly, I do like all the subjects, English, Science, MUN, expository writing, Chinese, history. Yes, I mention earlier, I do not like the "unexpected" subjects, but still, I want to be well in all, and I find school interesting. To say the truth, I am amazed by myself of the wonderful quote I thought of while writing this post. It is going to be my life motto: "Expect the Unexpected."

Staying up LATE

Today, well, technically it is a friday already, because it is way past midnight. Today is the last day of midterms! I am overwhlemed about it. For the whole week, we have been suffering from all the studying and the pressure. I wished this week would just end. I would be partying all night on friday. However, i can not be so happy right now. I still have another chapter to study for the biology test tomorrow, and the other boring homeworks i would have to finish. I have been trying really hard to wake myself up, i even tried caffine. However, on the drink, it said, oct.29.2011.......... the best-before-date is long over!!!! So i immediately stopped driniking the tea. Now i would really have to try coffee. I've tried showering already. I feel sleepier now. Perhaps i should research online how to stay awake. I could not believe i am staying up almost two hours past midnight already. Yes, i am planning to not sleep at all tonigh. All-nighter.

I came. I saw. I fell.

Just like Juilius Caesar, I mimicked his words, "I came, I saw, I conquered." Though i am hereby sweraing that i am not mocking him, i need to borrow his significant words. I came home. I saw the bed. I fell asleep. I should not have fallen asleep so fast. I still had history, english, and biology homework and to study. However, it seemed like someone drugged me. I couldnt stay awake at all. I tried, oh yes i did. Instead, my legs brought me back to the comfy bed like it had mind of its own. So yes i did fell asleep. I dreamt of many things. Then, i woke up at 3. I felt my heavy eye lids, and my back was smashed against the mattress, once again, back to the wonderful, and devilish dreamland, i could not stay away from. The reason i was so tired was because of basketball. Yes, my bad sleeping patterns also had an effect, but basketball was the big one. These days, i am just so obsessed with basketball. It felt so good- it is hard to describe the feeling, of regaining the lost interest in something. I was so cheerful and zealous, my hand hardly felt the basketball during PE class, where we were learning football. Yes, and somehow i fell in love with PE class. So, I was a good student and listened to the football rules. However, the rest of the times, i kept practicing basketball. Basketball. Basketball. Basketball. I really really love Basketball. Snapping back to reality finally at 6 in the morning. I finished my homework and studied a little bit, and went to school.

The bond

Reading is a wonderful thing. Look around you, books, books, and more books everywhere! As for writing, it is as twice as wonderful as reading. Writing is a magical thing, it creates bonds without the intend to. The bonds just naturally forms! What? Did you ask what these bonds are about and who these bonds connect? You! You, and everyone else around you, around the globe, too! When readers reads an author's book, the readers has some thoughts. The reader may think, 'oh this author is boring.' However, some others may think, 'Oh my goodness, I love this book! I love the author, I'm going to hate her/him forever if s/he doesnt write a sequel!' Also, some may even say, 'I hate the author of this book! Why did s/he have to make the nicest character die in the second book?' Strong bonds can form, just like that. Some readers, after reading an author's book, may respect the author dearly or look down on him/her. However, these are strong bonds form without intentions. No actual writers just sat down with you and started a random converstion. Instead, without all the awkward talking, the author simply expressed and displayed her message and feelings out for all readers aroudn the world to see. It is a very effective way of communicating, you see. I personally think, books and authors are awesome. (See the strong bond here?)