Triumph

Have you ever felt triumph. Well yes, there are thousands millions, zillion kinds of ways to feel triumph. Well, the triumph I felt today was undescriable. (is this a word?) Anyways, yes. I've always had a hard time finishing books that the teacher assigns us to read. I detest those books. They give you a load of pressure. "By next week, you have to finish pg.123-234. and finish the book questions." I detest that. It is not hard, but I dont like it. I dont feel like I am getting anything in my head. Well, of course other people may benefit from book readings in school, but not me. Well, I am lazy and I procrasinate much, so I just skim through the book and write down the answers I find. However, this time, the book assigned to us in English class, "A Christmas Carol" is really interesting and it is very fun to read. I felt triumph surrmounting me. Also, I HAVE FINISHED A BOOK THAT I'VE BEEN STUCK ON FOR 3 MONTHS! Can you believe? I am so happy I dont think there is another word to describe how I feel now. Content? No I'm simply HAPPY. Actually, the book i've been stuck on for months, is "The Hobbit," like I mentioned in my previous entry. Yes, it is an awesome book. How come I didnt realize before? Anyways. I love books.

Note to the English Teacher: Starting from tomorrow, I will not be able to post because I am leaving for a 5-day trip.

Today and Packing

Today, I met up with my friend to discuss our MUN project. We finished it SOON, in 3 hours, with watching music videos and promos. Well, We could have finished it in an hour, but we chose to do it with luxury sprinkled on. Then, I came home, and started on my math homework, and read a few pages of A Christmas Carol. I also started ( a little) to pack for the family trip. I am so excited. I searched up alot of information about the place and know quite a deal about it. Let's see.... what would I need? Hmmm, I would need well, clothes, toothbrush/paste, shampoo stuff already in the hotels...... Should I bring a big backpack or a handbag? I think I should bring a backpack. Oh, and I definitely need to recharge my camera. What book should I bring. Will I finish the Hobbit by then? I dont want to bring A Christmas Carol, because we would need it during English class, and hopefully I would finish it before we leave for the trip.

Christmas

I really like holidays, and there are some reasons. Well, first of all, on some holidays, you get days off. And for specific holidays you get stuff. Halloween, candies and LOVELY horror movies. Valentines day, chocolates and flowers. And Christmas... gifts! Well, no more of the magical gifts, but real gifts. Next week monday, me and my friends are exchanging gifts, and I am really excited. Isnt it human nature to get excited by the sight of wrapping papers? I think it is. Well, and christmas parties. Even though there arent any White christmases here, it is still cold. Well, no christmas cakes this year, but a new christmas tree. Yay! Also, our family exchanged christmas cards and ate sweets and fruits. It was fun. We also had music: Christmas carols playing in the background and somesort of little christmas show. Oh! And yesterday, on christmas eve turning to christmas, midnight of Dec. 24 to Dec. 25, I started reading "A Christmas Carol" by Charles Dickens. Well, it is our english homework to finish it, and all of last week was basketball practice and tournament. And I am still a hundred pages away from finishing "The Hobbit." The book is really good, but I think it is a slow read. Well, I really hope I can finish it soon. Back to the book "A Christmas Carol" Dont you think it is so cool I started reading it on Christmas? I think it is somewhat very remarkable (?) Anyways, the book is really short, only 80 or so pages. I hope I can finish those two books soon! Merry Christmas everyone!!

Basketball Game Part 3

Today was the final day of the basketball tournament. Well, I am not too giddy about this one. Sigh, today, there was only one game. And the beginners team was put on court alot. Yes, that was what I wished with all my heart, but after just seeing the opponent team keep scoring, I started to lose strength and energy mentally, discouraged. I know I shouldnt have done that, being discouraged. Coach said that team member's energy affects other team members. Anyways, I had a really wonderful experience, and learned alot, but it was a big state tournament, so I wished this wasnt my learning oppurtunity, but my victory. However, this was not the case. The other beginner team members scored. And I wish I could score too, I need more practice!!! Well, we lost the game at the end. I feel bad. Anyways, I know I am going to do better next time. There is still next year, and if I didnt learn my mistakes today, it wouldnt look so good if I lose the tournament of my second year of basketball. This is just another precious experience. Thank you. Today was a good day. Also, I had flute and math class, they were both very fun and I was really happy and willing to learn during the whole class, for both. Learning. Is. Wonderful.

Basketball Game Part 2

So today was the second day of the basketball tournament. There were two games in total. One in the morning and one in the afternoon. The morning game, our beginners team didnt have a chance to go on court. However, we learned quite alot by just watching. It was a fun experience. Then, in the afternoon, the beginners team did get to go on court for a few seconds. Well, I really wanted to play more, but we were put on court at the last few minutes. Sigh, well I know that I need to try harder and practice more and wait till the next tournament. Until then, I need to practice, practice, practice.

Basketball Game Part 1

Today was the first day of our basketball game. There are two games tomorrow and one on the day after that. Though for today's game, the our beginners' team only went on court for few brief minutes, we still were zealous and earning for another quarter. Well, or maybe it was just me. I really really like basketball. Especially the games. They were so interesting! I love it. Dont want to admit, but we lost. I wish we could win tomorrow! Please please please. Well, no use of me praying. It all depends on skills. Or maybe praying does help. You do need a little bit of luck. This whole afternoon I had been making a brochure and I really dont feel like sitting infront of the computer too long now. So can I end my journal here now? Actually, wait, one more thing. I should be more reticent. Oh gosh, what is seriously wrong with me and with my stupid blabbing mouth. Gosh, oh well i mean my mouth isnt stupid since it functions well, helps me pronounce words and eat stuff, but what is wrong with words that come out of it? Tomorrow, is another mission of life for me. Be reticent. That is your mission for tomorrow, and of course, winning the game too. Ok see I talk too much, i better go sleep now. BUH BYE!

Another grateful day

Tomorrow, is another basketball game. I wish I could perform well. I really really like basketball. There are hobbies that are just a part of you. I wish I could make basketball a part of me, like flute is a part of me already. Tomorrow is going to be a good day. I have to be grateful that I have this kind of oppurtunity. I really am truely grateful. Also, I would have to talk about today. Today was another good day passed. Though I havent finished a book that I've been stuck on for 3 months (that's not even humanly possible but yes, I am), and I didnt perform well in basketball practice, I am still grateful. I am very grateful for the day that is given to me, specifically me. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

All over again

I have a huge headache now and I do not know what to post. Oh! I know, I will post about Kim Jong Il. So yeah, today afternoon, I saw on CNN that Kim Jong Il is dead. And on the news, like in those videos, the North Koreans are crying and mourning over their great leader's death. I am not sure about what the response is of the globe and South Korea, but I know that they were simply shocked and unprepared. Soon, Kim Jong Un will tighten the grip on North Korea again. And soon, everything would be back to normal. In the CNN news video, the reporter discussed with another reporter whether or not the North Koreans would dare to bring about an uprising. The response of the reporter was a no. This end brings a new start. It somehow is related to how I feel nowadays, End one thing completely, in order to restore and rebuilt all over again.

Winter Dance

Ok, so our winter break officially started two days ago, which was friday night. One very remarkable thing was that in MUN, we actually watched a movie, called "A Christmas Story" and it wasnt related to MUN AT ALL!!!!!! No one could even believe it. I was like so excited for the whole movie. Then at 6:00pm, the winter dance started. The dance was awesome. Since I went to one winter dance last last year, which was like when I was in 7th grade. Then, I knew nothing about partying, dancing, whatsoever. So the 7th grade one was just a nice little experience. This time, It ROCKED. It was fun. Really fun. Well, so there were the party songs, which I jumped until my feet screamed in pain, and sang at the top of my lungs until at one high note cracked! Ouch. But, oh well, I love singing and dancing. And partying! There were chocolates, chips, sandwiches, icecream, and drinks. The boring cafeteria that we ate lunch in turned into an awesome dancefloor. And there were couches to let people hang out on. Hell yeah! I know this is nothing compared to those typical american parties, but it was still awesome. I also invited my best friend that transferred when we were in 7th grade. Oh, the moment I met her, it was then tahtI realized how much I missed her. It was a nice reunion. And I was glad my friend that currently is in the same school, instantly became friends with my best friend. The dance also had another meaning, it was the last of my silly, imprudent acts.

Eventful

These days can be described in one word: Eventful. So busy, so busy. Yesterday, we had the basketball game. Today, we had the chrsitmas performance! Tomorrow, a.k.a the last day of school before winter break, is the winter dance! During today's christmas performance, some of us, the freshmens had to dance to "You make me feel," it was really fun and I love dancing. Especially the passion grew after watching a movie called "Beat the world." For all the dance lovers, you should go check it out. And tomorrow, though just kinda excited, I will be going to the winter dance. And tomorrow, will be the last of my imprudent acts. I truely wish this last time would bring an end. Bring an end and start a new one.

First Game: FUN: GOOD Life

Today, was MY first basketball game ever. Well, I emphasized the "my" because my other teammates had already played in the previous game which I couldnt attend because of my classes. I did not perform well on the court. However, I will not be discouraged. I am going to take in this as an experience, since it is my first game. However, it does not mean I can just forget about it. I am going to learn from this experience and not make the same mistakes again. (Which includes sleeping earlier the night before). While the other team fast break - ed, I kept bumbing them and thrusting them on the floor. I felt huge remorse after that, keep pushing them down. However, I really do NOT think what I did was wrong. The basketball court, to me, was like a battlefield, the other team gets close to the hoop, I have to push them down, NO MATTER WHAT. The offense, I did not perform well YET, and I am sure soon I would improve and I am going to try really hard. This experienced changed me a lot. Not only it lighted the burning fire of desire and passion for basketball, I also earned a great experience. It was fun, overall, though we lost. No other words can describe the experience today, it was simply FUN. I never actually had a sport that I cared much for. But today, everything changed. I really think I can make basketball a part of my identity, like I did with music: flute, and dance, and studying (?) well, not really. Tomorrow, we are having a christmas show, which I perform in orchestra and dance, which I am really exicted about. I love dancing, singing and all kinds of things. I am trying to make myself like studying too. (I'm not a nerd, though I have this STRANGE buring PASSION and DESIRE for straight A+ s) haha....Then on friday, we are having a winter dance! It would be really exicting and I am very excited. I also invited an old classmate/ really close friend. And we're going to have a great reunion. YAY! Life is so awesome.

Be prepared

I am really not sure what should I post on blogger today. However, since I have to write a blog, I just am going to ramble and ramble, and see what I come up with. So there were many eventful things that happened today. First of all, erm...I dont know, I had fun in geometry and biology. Then, I was happy in MUN because this morning (ahem*) I woke up really early, and used 2 hours doing the MUN homework. Well, it is fine, because mostly it was just watching a very educational documentary, and jotting down some notes. My classmates 1/12 of the time. Which is only 10 mintues. However, I dont think that 2 hours of watching the film was in vain, because I had confidence in what I was saying during the class discussion. Oh well, I learned another life lesson: Always be prepared. NO MATTER WHAT. Also, I got very low on my grammar test, on clauses. They were careless mistakes, just because I didnt go with my very first answer. (Which I really should have.) So, I am going to take a redo test. I will be PREPARED and do it well. Also, another thing about preparation lesson I learned through life experience. Whenever whatever, Always, be, prepared. You dont know what is going to throw you off. For example, A compliment.

Basketball Game part 2

Dont people say news spread fast? Dont rumors in schools spread like the plague? But why? Why doesnt IMPORTANT news spread? Today, because of our basketball TRADITION, we, the team members had to wear formal attire to school. I personally think it is amusing and special. Also, today, we had two tests and if a fitness test in PE counts, Three! And I think the basketball game is anther test, so there, FOUR! However, this morning a team member told me that the game was cancelled. Not only that my formal attire was in vain, but also my utter disappointment crashed on me. I was so excited to have my first basketball game ever. I thought a long time about it yesterday. Fortunately, the game is simply postponed to wednesday. And for the whole afternoon, we have rehearsal for our christmas performance, I hope I still have the energy and strength, but no doubt my confidence. Wish me luck on my game!

Connections to historical events and larger world

What we are learning these days in History and MUN is really having a huge impact on me. What we are learning in History is the French revolution. During the Reign of Terror, anyone who was suspected to be against the revolution or had anything to do with the Old Older had their head chopped by the Guilotine. I know this is a silly thought, but a part of my dinner happened to be a shirmp. We all know how to eat a shirmp: Cut the head off, then peal off the legs, and strip its shell-like top off. I felt so bad eating that shirmp. This is also connected to genocides. We watched a documentary film on genocides last Friday. For example, in Rwanda, the people eliminating others would use a machete and chop a person into pieces. I felt as bad when I was eating the shirmp. I think I should be a vegetarian if I feel so bad eating a shirmp. But I can not help but feeling bad. I am really sorry. I am really sorry for the people who died in the French revolution, no, everyone who died in any kind of conflict, and the mass group of people who died in genocides. I understand peacekeeping is difficult, but I wish the UN could achieve that someday, if it is ever possible.

Realization of the new way to be happy in life.

Today, I have just realized how important teachers are and how grateful you can be to them. Also I realized how relieved a person can be by just clarifying their questions. I go to a math cram school. Now, it teaches us algebra. Last year, we had algebra I, but to my utmost regret, I did not pay attention AT ALL. I really regret it and wish I had worked harder. However, there is no use mourning and wailing over that now. The only way is for me to move on and start focusing more. Another important life lesson, you should never miss any second of your life. They are all important. Today, my tutor clarified my questions and I felt ebullient afterwards, and the burning passion for math surmounted me once again. Now that I realized how a person can brighten up by just understanding new concepts, I better start focusing on my biology, and actually work harder for it.

Basketball

For some reason, today's basketball practice seemed like the best one yet. Perhaps it is because I actually shot in some hoops. I was really glad since after I twisted my ankle, I couldnt practice, therefore my skills werent as good. Fortunately today, I shot in quite a few hoops. Our beginnner team also did a good job in defending against the offense (more skilled team members). So I was really ebullient and happy this practice. Next monday, we are having another game with a middle school. I am technically still a middle schooler, because that school counts 9th grade as still in middle school. So if we lose, we will have an excuse, like how we are the same age, (Because the coach expects we the highschoolers to win the middle schoolers) However, age does NOT matter. What matters is team work and skills. I simply can not wait till next monday comes. (Oh, but we have a history test on monday! oh no!) I really have a writers block today, and I am keep yawning, so this blog entry is boring and I would like to go sleep now. (Was that a run-on?) Oh well. Good bye!

Buring passion- Only the good news.

Today, was a good day. And a bad. Well, referring to my previous blog post about the VERY inspiring video we watched in history class, a good day being where you let gratefulness overflow you, no. But still, a nice day. However, there is this huge chuck of regret that feels like it weighs as much as lead. Do people want to hear the good news or the bad first? Today, I figured that the good then the bad is a good solution. Well, I got a good score on my math test! Yay! I really really have this crazy, burning love and passion for math. Okay, maybe not like algebra, but geometry. Geometry is like my FAVORITE subject in school. On pi day, 3/14, get ready for the big celebration party i'm throwing. (nevermind, i'm just kidding. But no doubt i'm going to post it on facebook.) Biology, I dont like it because I'm just not payin attention to the book. Dont get me wrong, I like taking notes during the teacher's lectures, but I'm just not that devoted to what's on the book. English is fun but how to find a theme is confusing me. Theme DOES NOT equal to morals! Thats what the teacher keeps telling us. Well, today I became more educated about the meaning of theme. In other words, I think I got the general idea afterschool. Also, after watching a movie about dancing, which was super-uper-duper inspirational, we the freshmen met to practice for christmas performance. We are dancing "You make me feel." It is really fun. I also happen to have a buring passion for dance. And there is the bad news but I dont need to complain and whine about it because it is already the past. WHATEVER! I just need to focus on the future. And finish my homework.

Fate

In English classes these days, we are discussing and learning about themes. Though I still am a little confused about themes and morals of story, I know a universal theme: "Love conquers all." So we had to chose a song and post the lyrics on a blog and find out the theme. I had chosen "Love story" by Taylor swift. One of the themes I wrote down was "Love that are meant to be always find a way." Ok, and I am going to extend on the topic. Maybe we can zoom out from the category of love. How about any things in life? Are things that are destined and meant to be always find their way to get to you? Yes, I do believe things that are destined to happen to you would eventually find their way and get you. Whether it is a beneficial thing or an anathema, you have to be alert and on guard all times to be ready when the unexpected attack you. Don't sweat it,it may not be an anathema, it may be perhaps true love!

Responsibilites- You wanna be the leader?

After a camp I went to during the summer, I have gained more confidence, and leadership. However, something proves that I still am not THAT confident. Today, I RE-realized the responsibility that comes with leadership. In order to be a leader, you would have to sustain the heavy responsibilites, and you have to have the ability to handle it well. Today was our annual sports day. There was an award for the most team spirit. Well, our team got 3rd, tied with another team. Want to hear a funny thing? There is only four teams! Obviously, we got tied because of the pity points. The team we were tied with even had a student play saxphone while screaming their chant. Theirs' was far better than ours. Even a rock can tell that. Okay, maybe not a rock, but you get what I mean. Do you know what ours sounded like? The back row was one line faster than the front row. Our chant wasnt together. It was scattered. Out of order. Out of control. No one, even we, who were rambling about our chants, couldnt understand what we were RAMBLING about. What's even worse, our team leader accidently started with the second line of the chant. Well, I hope I dont sound too cruel and mean and cold blooded. However, I am just stating the fact. The sports day was held in a rush. There were only two sports team meetings. It was really put together in a hurry. So the team leaders shouldnt be blamed for it. However, I am just saying that the leaders have a huge responsibility: make our team the best. So, now I'm getting to my point. (Finally.) During PE class, I really wanted to be the leader. (we were playing football, by the way) I knew all the rules, (mostly), thought of many strategies (note: many), thought over this and that (again, many things). Our PE was divided into two teams, and then, we were separated to girls and boys, separately. Our team leader (boys and girls mixed) had chosen a classmate as the leader. However, I really did want to be the leader. Well, the classmate did a good job. But, you know, self esteem? Or worse, ego? Narcissism? Oh well, I have a leadership-y heart (and mind) However, because of the lack of confidence, I didnt argue. I dont really step up and say I want to be the leader. What if our team loses? However, I know now. I re-realized it. If I really wanted to be the leader, then I would have to manage the responsibilites somehow. And somehow get things right. No more, will there be any cases, were I back out of being a leader because I am worried of what would happen if I do something wrong. Screw the people. If they dont like what I'm doing, then step up and say it to my face. I am not going to shrink back EVER AGAIN. Anyone whose like me, step up, LET'S DO THIS.

A video that changed my life: A good day.

Today, in history class, we were learning about the french revolution. Right after China decided to isolate itself from the world, the Enlightenment in Europe started. Then, the American revolution started, then the French Revolution. Because during the Enlightenment, many philosphers began to use their brains, and light bulbs were lit up and soon, a government formed. Our teacher thought a video was a quick fun thing to show us. (to keep us awake- well not me, i'm a GOOD kid haha- I dont sleep in class, though sometimes I feel the teacher words turn into monotone-) Anyways, the teacher showed us a TED talk video. Which he said that it was destinely (is that even a word?) made for people with short focus abilities. Everyone laughed at that. However, yes indeed, TED talks are very short. They are so educational. I love them. Espeically ones about technology. They are so awesome. (I'M NOT A NERD) So, this TED talk we watched was about life. Philosphers' interpretation of life. The speaker is a photographer who films things for a long time and watches the sped up version. You know, like you film the growth of a flower for a month, and speed it up. It is sort of like stop motion. The speaker/photographer really sees the beauty in life. Also, he is working on a project. Where he showed the audiences the first part. It was a little girl talking. She said simple things, what she wants, and how she views the world. However, later, an old man was on the screen, and he said so many touching words. He said "It is not another day, it is the day given to you, today." "Each day is a gift given to us." Yes, it is a gift. Most people, of course and me, took things for granted. In the cold winter mornings, under our heavy blankets, we groan. We complain, "Why do I have to go through another stupid day of school/ work?" However, a day, the most precious gift, is not stupid. Most people think, "Nothing special really happened today." However, the old man said, "Live it as it was your first day, and the last." He said, the only respond, to the gift of the day given to you, is "Gratefulness."
Think about electricity, water, the things we take for granted. However, most people around the world, would never get to experience those things we take for granted. "Be gratetful. Look at the people around you. Bless them. Let the blessing flow through you. With your eyes, smile, touch, and presence. Let Gratefulness overflow you. Then, it would truely be a good day."

The video inspired me greatly. It deeply touched my heart. Please go check it out.
It changed my life. It set me back on the right track, from a total mess. Hope it will change yours too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gXDMoiEkyuQ

(If you want to see from where the old man talks about life, start from around 4 mins:50 seconds)

Can you be someone else?

What we talked about in English class, was related to Irish history, where the British was Protestants and most of Ireland, Catholic. Soon, a border was formed arond the 5 Ulster counties, and divided Ireland into two, the Ulster part called Northern Ireland. The teacher brought up a topic. "Is it possible to convert to another religion?" One of the reasons it is difficult to convert is because of family members. You can not just abandon your dear family and convert to another religion all by yourself. I thought to myself, "Is it possible to totally change your character?" I believe..... yes. You can, definitely. However, the best thing to do is to be yourself. Nothing is better than being original and standing up for something you believe in strongly. For the people around the world that are acting and pretending, please just be yourself. Acting and pretending is not worth it, because you NEED to live life well.

What if? Anything's possible.

There is always a what if in life. I once saw on the internet, "life has an 'if' in it." L'if'E. Of course, it is bad to doubt life. However, people always think of it. Also, think about in literature. I love literature and stories. (irrelevant!) Even for the fairytales we all read when we were little. What if? For example, in little mermaid, what if the mermaid had just killed the prince and was turned back to a mermaid? Well, then the story would not contain a universal theme, which is being selfless for love. What if the hunter in snow white had killed her instead of letter her go? Well, then there just wouldnt be a happy ending. In life, you also may dwell on your past. You ask, what if, i had not done the act? Well, if its something bad you did that you wished you hadnt, well, lets just say your life would be much easier without the guilt. Now, this what if turns into a "if only." If only I hadnt done that. Well, everyone has imperfection in their lives. What is important is not to dwell on the past, and look toward the possibilities and your bright future. Don't dwell on the past and suicide. Just live on. Do I need to look up some inspirational quotes for examples? I dont think I need to. Because like I had already stated, everyone has a bright future, just endeavor, and nothing's impossible. Okay, I put up my hands in surrender, here you go, an imspirational quote, "Look at impossible, it says, ' I'mpossible,' 'I'm possible.'" So people around the world (AND ME) remember, YOU ARE POSSIBLE. ANYTHING'S POSSIBLE. JUST DO IT. LIVE LIFE WELL TO THE FULLEST. LIFE IS SHORT. TIME IS TOO VALUABLE. YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE. GO PEOPLE! LIFE YOUR LIVES! (that includes you, missy! - ignore me, i'm talking to myself)

Evil Net

You know these days, people see something interesting and new, they go, "This is so going on facebook." I think it is really interesting. I mean, those interesting things, yeah well, its fine if you put them on to let everyone know about it. For example, a new generation of nano is out, or a new IOS update or something. Also, maybe you fell and a snail was right infront of your nose. Okay, they are funny things and many of your friends may like your post. However, if two people have private joke or something, you should not post on it. Other people can see it, and then they might "like" it because they know you. Then you go all mad and say, "I dont even know him/her well!" I mean come on! We're all on the internet. Everything we do online is all public, our every little action is recorded. Okay, maybe not when we're like switching tabs, (or is it?) Anyways, you get my point. Everything online is not personal anymore, that's why the internet is dangerous. Espeically where all the dangerous credit card numbers are inserted. Also, social networking sites are dangerous because everyone can view your profile and information. Well even this blog is dangerous. Okay, not so much dangerous. It's public. SO BE CAREFUL OF THE EVIL "NET."

Can't fall asleep! Some solutions....

Dont people say, "Your love is my drug?" Well, this morning, I woke up and I was like, "Sleep is my drug." I mean, seriously, it's like I have insonmia or something. I just can not fall asleep at night! I try many sleeping positions, lie on my side, face up, face down,and just keep fidgeting in my bed. I just can not fall asleep easily. People who fall asleep in like 5 seconds after they lie on their beds are considered very very very extremely lucky people. However, I am also sure there are other people around the world like me, having hard times falling asleep. What are the solutions? Counting sheeps? That never, ever works. Imagining you are in a peaceful place? No. My imagination turns that into a story, which I never finish making, but takes an hour or so. Listening to a song? No. Songs actually keeps you from sleeping. Well, those are my ways which never work for me, but perhaps these solutions may work perfectly for others. Well, lucky them.

Maxims and music

Today morning, a classmate was playing with a software that creates music. I asked him what it was called because I was so amzaed at such an advance peice of technology. It dazzled me. It blew my mind. I dont know how it worked. My classmate was simply making music! I was so amazed at what he was doing. So as soon as I got home today, I downloaded the software and started trying out the software. However, it is too high techn for me, I didnt understand a thing that was going on. I wonder how that peice of software even worked. Clicking and dragging continued for hours on ends. Fortunately, there was a tutorial video, but it was only for a small part, it did not teach the users how to function everything else. I assume that the software is only for musicians that know alot about creating music. However, I am not going to be discouraged by not being able to figure out how to operate a music creating software. I know that I can create music. There are many forms of creating music. There is one with instruments, vocal, and even beatboxing. Also, the company Sony's motto is "every moment has its music." So yes, my conclusion, is that there is always another way. There is always a way to solve a problem. A door closes, another opens.

Analogies

Arent analogies amusing? Our history teacher does analogies all the time. Everytime the teacher makes an analogy, the class explodes in roars of laughter. For example, today, our history teacher had said: "How can you not get an essay right? It's fine if this time you forget your footnotes, its just like coming to school without your shoes. But if you didnt write a three part thesis, its like coming to school in just an underwear." Also, he stated why arent the people following their outlines. His analogy for it was that a person A asks a person B to buy things for him at 7-11. So person B jots down a list of things to buy on a paper, and he just throws the list away, and goes to 7-11 and buys nothing person A asked for. It was a funny analogy. Analogies are very important because it makes the point stated more clear, connects to the larger world, and it is what makes peoples' lives more amusing. (see? there is a three part thesis, RIGHT THERE! ok it was a sucky one but you get the point) Also, our MUN teacher, (also our history teahcer) had stated that analogies are important in speeches. I need to endeavor to make up more analogies. Practice makes perfect!

PD day!

Perhaps I am going to repeat myself quite a few times, but I am just simply so excited about the PD day. PD a.k.a PROFESSIONAL DEVEVLOPMENT DAY. As elementary kids, we were taught that PD day is when a teacher studies the teaching material. So till this point, I still believe is a "school day" for teachers. I love this day because not only we students get a day off, we see the teachers suffer from studying, like what students always do! Well, I'm not going to lie, I actually like studying. I love studying! I am just not hard working. Isnt studying the eaiest thing in the world? At least it's not as difficult as basketball, which you really have to physically work for it. At least studying is easier, you simply mentally work for it. Thinking! Think think think.

Just the right Genre: I heart MUSIC

What genres of music do you like? These days, I am so into pop punk and alternative rock! I am in love with bands like faber drive (suggested by a friend), all time low, and simple plan. I love them so much. I finally found the right genre for me! I am so giddy. I always have this happy feeling in my heart when I have something new, like a new book. However, the new found love for pop punk and alternative rock songs is so refreshing and fortunate. I simply love music. I need music to live. Music makes me happy. Muisc is my life. It simply is. I love composing too, though I'm still a beginner in composing. So back to the bands I admire. Faber drive, their song called "I'll be there" is good, for example. I am so in love with music! However, I still have to remind myself, school is the most important thing now.

Vows to the World.

In my essay for Expository Writing, which the topic was "Personality," I wrote about persistence and determination. I have had perfect examples for my essay,however, in real life, I am not as persistent as I described myself to be. Actually, these days, I am anything but persistent. My promises, I never keep. My vows, I constantly break. I dont know why I keep doing this. Have you ever been in the same situation as I am in now? Feel like your worlds spinning too fast, and out of control? Just because you can't organize your life well? I have to keep reminding myself, life is short, so I have to quickly wake up and start living life well. However, I can't bring myself to action these days. The promises and vows that I would grow taller, be in shape, stay smart. But I keep breaking those promises! I sleep too late, don't exercise, don't study hard. What's wrong with me. Moreover, what's wrong with my temper? Where did my self esteem go? Where's my dignity? Where is my kindness? Pride? Persistence? Where is my life? My life is out of control.

Here, today, for the last time, I promise, to the world, I am going to grow tall, be in shape, be smart and kind. I promise. I swear. I vow to be persistent.

Because this is online, on Blogger, this is public now. I have just made my vows to the world. I'm going to prove to the world that promising yourself for the zillionth time won't work. You simply have to promise to the world, like I have just done. World, I have just promised something really big, and I swear I am keeping it. World, just wait and you'll see.
You say, "Why is this blog entry relevant enough to be online?" It is because, I'm important. I am going to be the next global leader. So are you. You are important too. See? My pride and dignity is back. So may yours be.

Let's TALK

Today, in our English class, the teacher breifly mentioned about tone, diction and mood. As a writer wannabe, I was deeply awed by how authors have different, individual, unique tones. Tones are attitude toward subject, audience and characters. Tones are created by diction, or the writiers choice of words. So, my choice of words huh..... As for me, I dont really think I have a distinct tone, which is very depressing. For my two closest friends, they have distinct tones and I love them. One is a mix of sarcasm and casual, another is playful and sincere. I love them! However, I am in the middle. I don't have a distinct tone. Is it because I'm not paying close attention to the subject? No, that's not it. I pay very close attention to my subject. I pay very close attention to the character, which is me. However, I dont really "TALK" to the audienes. Oh no. Does that mean I am a self centered person? I sure do hope not. However, this is a blog, I can not discuss what to post with a 100 other people. I really dont know where this is going. So, should I refer more to the audiences? Should I ask more rhetorical questions? (By the way, I am asking one right now.) I should talk more. By talk I mean "talk" to the audience.

Think twice before action? No, thrice!

Today, I was searching for inspirations. Inspirations for what? For the journal of course! However, I failed to find a topic. Sigh, However, many things happned today. The first thing I'm going to talk about is my careless actions. This is another example of me, acting before I think twice. I think I act too much on the impulse, never think of the concenquenses that follows. So, today in PE class, because I twisted my ankle, I had the ice. Soon, i figured the ice wasnt really helping, so i played around with it. Then, a friend came by, and started play the ice around with me. However, soon, the joke went way too overboard and I threw the ice without thinking twice. Worse, the ice missed my friend, and instead flew right infront of two serious-looking friends. I said sorry, but they sort of glared at me. Well, they actually just looked at me. However, I know I shouldn't have done that. I almost injured someone! Gosh, I dont know what i was thinking. I know I have done countless mistakes over the years, and still, I didnt get rid of my imprudent habit of acting on an impulse, without thinking twice. My habit is worse than everyone else's, so for me, I think I would have to think thrice, before action.

Music is my life

I wished I had a better, more interesting topic to share with you guys. Sadly, I don't. Well, I twisted my ankle yesterday, and I walk funny, but that's not really important and interesting. It's actually pretty painful. Anyways, today, we had orchestra. Music reminds me that yesterday, I fell in love with the song, "The one that got away." This song is about a breakup of a couple. Setting aside the lyrics, i personally think that the melody alone is sad. Isn't music wonderful? I've always admired people who say, "Music is my life." How I wish I could say that! However, it just doesnt come out of my mouth? Have you ever had a time where you wish for something but it just doesnt work? Psh, of course, then there is the grades..... you wish you could get higher grades but you can't! However, my main concern is music now, of course my primary concern is grades, but they are going fine, it could be better, but its fine now.  Music is wonderful, really. When you listen to any type of music, there is always the mood, different moods are happy, sad, or mysterious. I love music, and i know that I should practice more, in order to say, "Music is my life."

Being yourself: Fake it!

Being yourself makes who you are. Being yourself is a part of your identity. Being yourself is equivalent to your personality traits. Can a person change over time? Surely yes, but do they change alot? How? Something happened to me in middle school, and I became the person i am now. The thing that happened to me isnt anything bad, I dont even know what it is! What was it that made me, not me? I really can't remember. However, isnt it very cliche and commonplace in stories and movies, where two best friends reunite and one is drastically changed? Well, that pretty much sounds like me right now. I want to be back to the old me, friendly, quiet, thoughtful. I want to get out of me that is obnoxiously loud, constantly screaming that disgusting high-pitched scream. What should i do to get back to the old me? Endeavors? I've tried, but i guess not hard enough. Is there anyone else out there that is in a similar situation and feel the same way that i do? I've heard of this quote in a book, "Fake it until you make it." Well, I guess that's exactly what I'm going to do from now. Fake it.

High and Low?: The Heart rules the mind

What do you do first? The things of higher priority first or low? Of course the higher priority, you would say. However, me? Needless to say, of course I would reply the same, but by heart does not follow my mind, or is it the other way around? Well, what i'm trying to say is that even though i know that i should do the things with higher priority, but i end up finishing up the lower priority things then, at last, around midnight, start doing the things with higher priority, like studying for tests, for example. Sigh, I should stop doing that. My mind does not follow my heart. Since we come across this, lets think about it. Mind follow heart? Or heart follow mind? Hmm...... well, before that, I have another question, does your heart rule you, or your mind? I believe, that your heart gives you conscience, tells you what's wrong and what's right. However, your mind may tell you otherwise. People get into trouble, and i'm not saying its a bad thing, because people make mistakes at least once in their life. Whether intentionally or not. However, for the intentional mistakes, the mind takes over the heart, the conscience. So, i think following the heart, conscience is better. So from now on, I should follow my heart. Just like everyone else in the world is now.

The Day after tomorrow

There was this movie called "The Day after Tomorrow," released back a long while ago. It was released when I was in second grade or first. Anyways, the first time I watched the movie was at school, or on the school bus, my memory is hazy about it. However, that particular day, I had a squeamish feeling, so I felt kind of sick. So, I did not get to watch the movie properly, therefore regarded it as a lackluster movie. Then, after a few days at home, my family watched it. My family was like "Oh, this movie is really good, you should definitely watch it." However, I used lied that I did watch it before (which wasnt true) and that I didnt like it. However, till this day, I am curious about the plot. I only remember this part where there was a hail and many people died. However, I am very zealous about watching it, so I may as well just download it and watch it during the weekend. Right now, what is uppermost in my mind, is that I can not wait for the day after tomorrow. I have so many homework due, and a speech to present tomorrow, that I can not wait until it is friday afternoon. Oh, how I wished it was a friday afternoon, till then, I would have to be really focused and hardworking.

Memories are about to be made: 25

First, I wrote "Eventful day" for the post title, but I deleted it because I always end up having a different title whenever i finish an entry. Personally, I think this is really awesome, because that means I think while I type. However, today I think I'm just going to stick with what eventful, important things happened today. So, for some reason, i was very energetic and excited today. After English class, during history class, I was especially cheerful. Perhaps it's because we finished the vocabulary test in English? I really don't know for sure. However, I was really happy. Then, other eventful thing happened. I was really excited to get our jerseys for basketball. I couldnt believe our luck! The original team members already got their jerseys. We get our jersey number in order. So the last original member had the number 20. So, this time, our numbers we in the 20 range. Michael Jordan and Kobe Bryant! (Which is 23 and 24) Well, our coach left out the number 23, he said it was because of the pressure? I'm not really sure. However, my friend got the number 24, while i wished that i got the number. However, like our coach said, we make our own memories of the number we get. So, I got 25. It wasnt bad, I like the number. Perhaps because there is a 2? My birthday is in feburary. Yes, now it's up to me to make the valuable memories with the 25.

Different view points: The World Spins

It's funny, how people have different view points. I mean, we are all human beings afterall, why are we having different view points? For example, some girls like the color pink, at the same time, some girls hate it. I dont understand, we are all girls, why dont we all like pink? Also, for guys, I know every single guy likes the color blue. However, I think this also have something to do with assumptions and stereotypes. So, back to literature, my favorite topic! So, after reading a story, people have different points of view. Some might say, "I hate that character? Why did they do that?" While others might say, "What s/he did was right! S/he had to! I love that character, what are you talking about?" It's really funny how people think differently, but that's what keeps the globe rotating. If everyone had the same ideas and view points, there would be no global leaders, there wouldnt even be Communism! Say, doesnt that kind of world sound peaceful. Yes, but also boring! Because different people have different view points, new ideas are presented out to the world and the world improves more and more everyday.

Careless Mistakes: "The Necklace"

Today, i would like to talk about 2 things. First one is the math test we are going to have tomorrow. Our midterm week was over last week and everyone was celebrating and being lazy as if there is no tomorrow. However, there is a tomorrow, and we are having a math chapter test. Thank the lords that we arent having a math midterm, though i really like math. However, i simply detest the pressure being felt before midterms. I detest midterms, too. Actually, I detest myself. I knew that I could have gotten a higher score. I simply hate myself for making mistakes. Secondly, I read "The Necklace" again, in our english textbook. I've at least read the story 4 times now. Everytime i finish reading the story, I feel such depression and sadness for the main character that I dislike the author very much. However, as I rethink it over, it is actually the main character's fault. If only she hadnt been so careless, then it would have saved her from the 10 years' hard work. The careless mistake topic conjures up the incident where i left my laptop in the history classroom. Oh no. A careless mistake. Pray to the lords no one took it. I swear, or at least swear to try not to make any careless mistakes again. Not on any test, nor in life. This brings us to another topic. In books, author creates characters based on how they would really react in real life. So reading books and understanding characters help readers with how to face life. That somehow seems to make connections between me and "The Necklace," but no more of the careless mistakes!

New Quarter: Expecting the Unexpected.

Next week, is the start of the second quarter. I think today I should talk about school subjects. My favorite subject in school is math. Let's take science as an example. On the first lesson of the first chapter, said "Science is always changing." No human being could ever guess how I detested that very sentence. Why change? I dont understand. Also, in English class, why do we have to analyze the story? Why do we have to think of the signs in the story? Why do we have to analyze poems? What if the poem is just the way it is? What if a shattered piece of glass on the floor, does not mean a broken heart, but merely stands for a careless mistake? I dont want it to be so confusing, I would like a real answer! However, I figured that life works the same way. There are never specific answers, always the unexpected. However, unexpected in life, is always be exciting  and refreshing, and that's what keeps people going! Expecting the unexpected. However, in school, I personally dont like the unexpected. That's the mean reason I like math. Also, I like history too. History has a definite answer. No one can get on a time machine and change history. Weirdly, I do like all the subjects, English, Science, MUN, expository writing, Chinese, history. Yes, I mention earlier, I do not like the "unexpected" subjects, but still, I want to be well in all, and I find school interesting. To say the truth, I am amazed by myself of the wonderful quote I thought of while writing this post. It is going to be my life motto: "Expect the Unexpected."

Staying up LATE

Today, well, technically it is a friday already, because it is way past midnight. Today is the last day of midterms! I am overwhlemed about it. For the whole week, we have been suffering from all the studying and the pressure. I wished this week would just end. I would be partying all night on friday. However, i can not be so happy right now. I still have another chapter to study for the biology test tomorrow, and the other boring homeworks i would have to finish. I have been trying really hard to wake myself up, i even tried caffine. However, on the drink, it said, oct.29.2011.......... the best-before-date is long over!!!! So i immediately stopped driniking the tea. Now i would really have to try coffee. I've tried showering already. I feel sleepier now. Perhaps i should research online how to stay awake. I could not believe i am staying up almost two hours past midnight already. Yes, i am planning to not sleep at all tonigh. All-nighter.

I came. I saw. I fell.

Just like Juilius Caesar, I mimicked his words, "I came, I saw, I conquered." Though i am hereby sweraing that i am not mocking him, i need to borrow his significant words. I came home. I saw the bed. I fell asleep. I should not have fallen asleep so fast. I still had history, english, and biology homework and to study. However, it seemed like someone drugged me. I couldnt stay awake at all. I tried, oh yes i did. Instead, my legs brought me back to the comfy bed like it had mind of its own. So yes i did fell asleep. I dreamt of many things. Then, i woke up at 3. I felt my heavy eye lids, and my back was smashed against the mattress, once again, back to the wonderful, and devilish dreamland, i could not stay away from. The reason i was so tired was because of basketball. Yes, my bad sleeping patterns also had an effect, but basketball was the big one. These days, i am just so obsessed with basketball. It felt so good- it is hard to describe the feeling, of regaining the lost interest in something. I was so cheerful and zealous, my hand hardly felt the basketball during PE class, where we were learning football. Yes, and somehow i fell in love with PE class. So, I was a good student and listened to the football rules. However, the rest of the times, i kept practicing basketball. Basketball. Basketball. Basketball. I really really love Basketball. Snapping back to reality finally at 6 in the morning. I finished my homework and studied a little bit, and went to school.

The bond

Reading is a wonderful thing. Look around you, books, books, and more books everywhere! As for writing, it is as twice as wonderful as reading. Writing is a magical thing, it creates bonds without the intend to. The bonds just naturally forms! What? Did you ask what these bonds are about and who these bonds connect? You! You, and everyone else around you, around the globe, too! When readers reads an author's book, the readers has some thoughts. The reader may think, 'oh this author is boring.' However, some others may think, 'Oh my goodness, I love this book! I love the author, I'm going to hate her/him forever if s/he doesnt write a sequel!' Also, some may even say, 'I hate the author of this book! Why did s/he have to make the nicest character die in the second book?' Strong bonds can form, just like that. Some readers, after reading an author's book, may respect the author dearly or look down on him/her. However, these are strong bonds form without intentions. No actual writers just sat down with you and started a random converstion. Instead, without all the awkward talking, the author simply expressed and displayed her message and feelings out for all readers aroudn the world to see. It is a very effective way of communicating, you see. I personally think, books and authors are awesome. (See the strong bond here?)

A happy day: No other words can better replace "Happy"

For some reason, today was a happy day. There maybe other words like cheerful and enthusiastic, to describe a happy day. However, today was just simply a "happy" day. Perhaps it is because we finished an english test that I was in great pressure under for the whole weekend, that made me happy. Perhaps the other factors built me a happy day. In PE class, we did sit ups, push ups, shuttle runs, and pull ups. I did better than I was able to. However, the pull ups, it took over me hands down. I could do a pull up. Perhaps, practice makes perfect, more practice for me! Also, as i mentioned yesterday, I've got my first basketball shoes! I was happy during the whole basketball practice and did quite well, better than usual at least. However, there were these blisters that kept growing, and my socks were too short, and it kept rubbing on the blisters. It hurted alot, but I didnt care because of the comfy shoes. I am so happy. I offically fell in love with basketball again today. I can not leave the 3 point line, though fail attempts follow one another, I still persisted on shooting in. However, today i only accomplished shooting in from the top of the box, not the 3 point line. "Practice makes perfect!" I tell myself again now. I wished my friend could have stop bugging me to go down stairs while I was so absorbed in shooting one last ball, and did a lay up. However, I knew my friend wasnt feeling well, so i gave in and went down stairs with her. Then, the elevator stopped at 5th floor, when we were supposed to get off a 4th floor. There was a man who was infront of the elevator, I almost made a basketball move on him. I told my friend this and she was laughing histerically. It was a funny moment.

New stuff: Another philosophy

New stuff exhilirates me. I love them, but I know in my heart with poignancy that i do not deserve them. Perhaps when the day that i deserve new things comes, i would be more than glad to accept them. However, not now, not now. Still, i am going to talk about my new shoes and a cool leather jacket my parents got me yesterday. First about the shoes. I have been injured for the whole week now, of my ankle, which was twisted during PE class, playing softball, and made worse during basketball practice. So, my parents got me a black basketball shoes. The shoes are so awesome! The basketball shoes felt really comfortable. I am very grateful to my parents. Futhermore, they got me another pair of pink sneakers, and again, they are gorgeous. I have never owned a pair like that. I felt bad because again, I dont feel like i deserve them. Addtionally, i got a cool leather jacket. Again, I went through all the weird feelings all over again. Well, in conclusion, i am not trying to brag to the world about new things i got, I am just stating that if you dont deserve it, but you want to, you would have to work for it. I believe that wonderful things only happen to people who deserve them. Perhaps, these new things are a sign for me to get moving toward my midterms!

Where did we get the guts?: Halloween

Today in school, we had a halloween party! I was so zealous about the party for the whole day, though it didnt start until 11 am. I love halloween, actually, there is not one holiday that i do not like. However, halloween is indeed one of my favorities. During halloween, you get to dress up and walk around like you really are what you dressed up as. I didnt really have time to prepare thoroughly on my costume, i just got a witch hat and some green gloves that had wrinkles and long fingernails (like a witch) I saw many people dress up as interesting figures. Some dressed up as powerpuff girls, some dressed as Wally, there were also the pacman series. It was entertaining to watch what others came up with. Also, there was the haunted house, and a pinpong game, and a musical chair game. However, me and my friend (later friends) went to watch horror/scary movies our english teacher played. He divided up to two rooms, a  middle school section and the highschool section. I saw some of my classmates there, already watching the movie. The movies' title is called "The Grudge." It is about a japanese ghost that keeps haunting a house because she has the grudge left when her husband killed her just because she liked a american professor. When i was watching the movie, i cuddled with my friend, and we were barely watching the movie. Then, we became more brave, and i dont know where we got the guts to finish the movie. It was actually ok when we finished it, however, when i think of the movie at night by myself, (like now, for example) it is very scary. I wonder now how am i going to fall asleep. It was a very interesting halloween. I love halloweens! Next year........ I am going to dress up!!!!!

Halloween

I'm really happy (is there a better word for happy? oh! enthusiastic) Ok. I am very enthusiastic and sanguine about tomorrow's halloween party... which doesnt start till like lunch time, but still, yes I am very excited and zealous about it. However, my costume isnt exactly stupendous, it is simply a witch mask and claws. My family and I simply went out this evening and bought some decent-looking props and tomorrow, I'm going to school with them. How interesting. I love halloweens! I love trick-or-treating, all time childhood favorite activity, but now we are older, so we dont get to do trick-or-treating, instead, we are the ones giving out candies and wasting our money. (I just put the wasting money part for attempts for jokes, well since its like halloween and stuff, I'm trying to enlighten the mood) I totally detest and dislike scary/horror movies. They replay over and over again in my mind, every night I would cry out in fright when the light is turns off. I would avoid stepping in the spotlight surrounded by darkness, when it is usually the time where the ghost grabs your ankle. Also, there is the scary cliche part in stories and movies that has the motto/moral advice : "Dont look back." (Now i'm very scared and i wish the halloween party day would go smoothly without the encounter of horror movies. Thank you. And i hereby wish all the ghost rest quietly and peacefully in sleep. Good night.

Excuses and Lies

Today, in our english teacher's classroom, I picked up a little brown-binded book called "Excuses and Lies," though I did not read it carefully, I got the general idea. The book started with the introductory to excuses and lies and how people can not live without it. It also stated that, in work, excuses alleviates the punishments of tardies. It also said that excuses and lies start from 6 year olds. We ramble excuses and lies to get what we want since we are toddlers. It is a very interesting fact, because, if we now go ask people on the street, whether they have at least made excuses and lies once in their lives, none would say no. Also, in the book, it said that if there were no excuses and lies, only truths, then the world would be chaotic and there would be never ending arguements.

The world is full of pleasant surprises

The world is full of pleasant surprises, though there are times that are difficult to endure. There are wonderful times where the smile maybe spilling out. Weird expression, but, a smile that simply spills out because there is too much to hold. These days, I feel very lucky. I attended the HSINMUN VII, and learned a great deal and had a wonderful experience, and today, while i was sitting on one of the hospital chairs, something really unexpected and pleasant happened. While I was staring at my spranged ankle with some medical treatment, and willing it to get better soon, a little boy of around 7 or 8 years walked toward me, stopped infront of me, and smiled. I smiled back and his smile grew bigger. It was a long time since unexpected surprises really happened. So, I almost forgot about how surprises can be pleasant, espcially in the public. I wish there were more of the unexpected pleasant surprises in the world. I know they are out there. Perhaps more should come to me. I just want to say: Love Gives Me Hope. And it is what keeps the world spinning and going.

First MUN Conference

This saturday and sunday was the first MUN conference that i attended. I was in the ECOSOC: Economic and Social committee, with the issues of monitoring long term humantarian aid and solving financial crime effectively. On saturday, the first day of the conference, there was the opening ceremony, then we separated and went to each conference rooms. We simply said our opening speeches, then we had a session called lobbying. Which was going around, looking for people with similar resolutions and supporting a main submitter's reso as one of the co- submitters. Since it was the first conference for most of us, everyone wsa just nervous and felt th same way. So, we made friends quicker. My close classmate/friend made many girl-friends, while i talked to the guy who sat next to me. I know already that I make better friends with guys than girls. However, I also met my old classmate there and i was so happy to see her again. However, at first i didnt recognize her because of her glasses. Then, when she talked to me and she asked me if i was from the school we went to together, i said yes and she told me her name and i was like, "Oh! i know you!" I was really happy to reunite with an old classmate. Though we werent as close as best friends, we were close classmates. We became close again instantly. It was an awesome feeling. Because i moved around and transferred to alot of different schools, I didnt really experience those reuniting situations where you meet a old classmate. So i was really happy. The next day, we started debating. Though i didnt speak up alot, not as much as my friend, but I sat and listened carefully, and learned alot of things. I wish that I could go to the next conference and study, prepare more beforehand so i could perform better in the conference. Also, there was a depressing thing, it was that one of the resos me and my friend voted for, lost. However, the other reso that we voted for was approved. It was an amazing experience.

What seems not important turns out big

A small thing, will turn out to be big. The little insignificant things would turn out to be big important things. Little efforts would gather and little by little, get a huge accomplishment as a whole. However, it also works the other way around. You don't care, so you say, oh it doesn't matter, it's just a small homework assignment anyways, I'll just do it tomorrow. Besides, it's not due until Friday, anyways. You say on a Wednesday night. However, you are wrong big time. Those little times come together and forms the word Procrastination. Perhaps the people would careful personalities won't procrastinate as much as people who are lazy and nonchalant.

Again

Today, again, I am going to write about how my life sucks. Well, it doesnt really suck, but I just feel so out of place, and that I regret wasting my time, without being able to help it. I really have to manage my time well. Sometimes, I accidently fall asleep, I wake up, and oh look! Its school time already. I really dislike people who can not manage their time well. However, I am just being a hypocrite. I never manage my time well. However, I am going to change. I am going to manage my time well. Focus, and the only thing that matters now to me is efficiency. The only thing that matters to me is schoolwork, homework and studying. All the other things in school does not matter. I would not want to sell gum at the train station for being on facebook, socializing all the time. I'm not popular but I chat alot on facebook. Popularity doesnt matter. I hate myself for being such an airhead these days. I was never once like this when I awas younger and smarter. Now, I'm just a walking body, with nothing in my head. I really have to change this. I really have to wake up and start planning the future and take life seriously. I only have one life. I am going to treasure it, and live it to the fullest.

Things now are not how they were before.

I dont want to sound like I am going to jump out the window any second, but I just feel nothing these days. I used to do great in school. An Algebra I test tomorrow? I dont care, an open book test anyways- and i go to sleep. A life science worksheet due tomorrow? Just do it in class, no big deal, the teacher never notices. English test? I read the story already. I never had a problem throughout middle school. I was careless, yes, i admit, but it was never a problem for me. I was never hard working, but average, sometimes good, sometimes ok, depending how long I simply skimmed through the pages. However, this year, a new freshmen year, the first year of highschool, I realized, it is not like middle school anymore. I can not simply fool around and expect myself to pass the subjects. I finally realized now I would have to wake up and start to live life seriously in order for me to not just sell gum at the train station, like our 8th grade english teacher used to say. I was started to fall behind, and I asked my friends for suggestions. Well, i knew they were more hardworking than I was, all through last year, but i didnt know till now, how hard working they were. All the time I was simply bobbing my head to music, they were studying, reading, reviewing. I regret all the time I have wasted. While they were memorizing every detail in the book, I was on Facebook. I would like to wake up now, I am trying to change these days, I really am. I hardly go on Facebook nowadays, but I still can't focus. I hope with all my heart that with a certain amount of time, I would get back on tract. Till then, I am going to be very hardworking and pray.

Banana

I have always believed in many things. Even the ones like spiritual and the ones related to fate. Also, I love to make up my own philosophies. For example, if a leave falls, then that means an anathema is leaving and a new leave would grow, then that will bring a new start. So, today, I ate a banana, and I thought, what philosophy could i make out of a banana? I start making up philosophies when I think my life is in its lowest point. I don't feel like life is going as well as before. My grades are not the best, I am having a hard time in basketball, everything is out of control. So as I peeled the banana, i realized there was a rotten bit at the end. I finished i till the end, so I saw the whole banana as life itself. Then, the front part in the banana had nothing wrong with it, so the first part of life, everything was smooth and fine, till the rotten part, which i think of as an obstacle, a abysmal hardship, so I scratched the rotten part out with a spoon. Now, the banana is obstacle-free again, as perfect and smooth as the top part. So, the philosophy is that whenever there is an obstacle in life, just get over it, and try your best, and a new start would come. Just like, "A door closes, another opens."

Best Friends Forever : Interesting Life

A book by Jennifer Weiner, "Best Friends Forever," is a book that I just finished today, and I've got to say that it is the best book that i've read in months. A huge portion, half of the book, was flashbacks the main character had. At first, I didnt like it. Then, i got used to the form of this book, and gradually, fell in love with it. Flashbacks, are important, like we learned in our English classes. And in this book, it clearly shows just how important the flashbacks are. Also, it brings back readers back and forth between the past and the present, and the flashbacks, of course has some sort of relationship with events happening in current times. So, perhaps, the meaning of flashbacks are that life is the same throughtout. It may mean that life is plain and simple, just the reoccuring events, conflicts, resolutions at different places, times, and with different people throughout life. Perhaps if one read this interpretation, s/he may think: "Then life must be boring and meaningless." However, I think that is the part where it spices things up. You get to go through many different conflicts, and in different time and place with different people. Also, each time, you may get different resolution to problems. That is where life is interesting.

Suspense

In literacy, suspense means hints that foreshadow what is going to happen later in the story. I love suspenses, but I am not good at writing them. I have many attempts of writing novels, mostly fantasy ones, but my stories are usually flat. Flat all the way through, for example, i write: "there was a girl, she met a vampire, became friends, got bitten, and avoided the vampire, later reunited with the vampire." Is it because it is too cliche? The story seems too humdrum, but there are all the ingredients to a perfect story: the plot, conflict, resolutions, and all the other literary terms. Perhaps suspense really takes a big role in stories. Without suspense, stories are not stories. The story might as just well be an essay, informational and no suspense, resolution whatsoever. Recalling the assignment of writing a scary story, I think I am going to have a tough time writing the suspense part of the story. However, keeping in mind the quote, "When the going is tough, the tough gets going." I believe, if i successfully compose a story with a delicious suspense, I am going to become the master of writing.

Stories inspirations in general

Today, we had an interesting english class, even though the teacher gave us many tests to prepare for, i still enjoyed the class. At first, we had a little quiz/ worksheet, there were vocabularies on it that i didnt study last night. However, later in the class, we had a group activity about brainstorming how an author characterizes characters in a story, and finally what i studied last night was useful. Then, the teacher said the midterm was on the offical halloween day, october 31, and we are going to write a horror, halloween story for him. I was thrilled by the idea. I love writing stories, of every genre, though I did not excel in every of them, I love writing them. I am particularily familiar with the genre of fantasy because I was very obsessed with them. Because halloween/horror stories usually involves fantasy, I can not wait to get my hands on my own stories.

Happily Ever After: The Landlady

What if all the stories with endings that suck, are depressing, and think-it-yourselfs, have a happily ever after ending? if so, all the stories on the planet would be boring, on the other hand, every single story would make people happy. One story that stood out most in our english textbook in 8th grade, was the story of "The Landlady." Somehow the story baffled my mind. Grasped it tightly. The story of "The Landlady," is a old woman, who is a owner of a Bed and Breakfast, locks up young men that stays overnight. The story didnt have an ending. I kept thinking different versions of the story and it keeps ending with the same resolution: the landlady is a witch. I thought of the first resolution of the landlady being the witch at 8th grade, but now, almost over a year, i still have the same thought. No matter what she does to the young men who are trapped in her Bed and Breakfast, she must practice witchcraft on them. What else?

Procrastination

People around me kept talking about procrastination. At first, i didnt even know what the word meant. Later, i checked the dictionary and found out it's a part of me already. Procrastination is the habit of delaying, which means in the student's dictionary- doing the homework 3 minutes before it is due. Well, I personally dont just start my homework minutes before it's due (though i've seen actual students doing that), i have the bad bad habit of procrastinating, espcially for projects. I dislike starting early on projects that the due date is in for example 2 weeks. I keep leaving the project till the very last 2 days or even the day before. I really detest myself for the bad habit. I know in my heart that i should not do that, but it is not as easy as it seems. A habit is very hard to get rid of. However, i am changing this year, because it is the first year of highschool. I am very determined to start waking up and focus. Work very hard and get straight A+ grades.

Just Because of Laziness

Today, i truely felt that there is nothing missing in my life. The only thing missing actually, is my brain. I have everything, a loving, perfect family, and a wonderful life, what else could i wish for? Because i have everything, i would like to really have everything, and the main thing right now, is grades. High, high grades, is what i am missing. Like the title already introduced, just because of laziness and lack of focus, i am going to let my perfect life and family go in to vain? No. Defintitely not. So, i am slapping my self, over and over, and telling myself, my life is just simply perfect, all i need is to focus and stop fooling around, so i can have the most perfect life ever.

The World comes to a stop. Momentarily

Steve Jobs, the CEO of Apple, who changed the world, who introduced a whole new world to us, passed away today. The moment i heard the news, my voice got louder, and suddenly, a enormously heavy rock appeared magically in my heart, i felt myself hard to breathe. Steve Jobs, was my idol. All my life, i had wanted to be like him. My passion for electronics was incomparible to others, and my dream was to just become a CEO of an world widely known and superb. My another sub-dream was to work in apple and meet Steve Jobs. However, that dream became impossible today. Steve Jobs is to be said, the person who made the most enormous leap of technology for our world. He made magic that should have came in the far future, but he did it. Even though Steve Jobs passed away today, and my dreams shattered and weakened, i believe, anything's possible, nothing is impossible. Therefore, I am in the future going to visit Steve Jobs, then, i am going to fullfill my dreams. Though i would not be able to meet the greatest CEO of all times in flesh and blood. Soon, in the near future, i would see the reflection of the second greatest CEO, smiling back at me, in flesh and blood. Steve Jobs, may you rest peacefully, and reincarnate soon, because the world already misses you too much. The world loves you forever. I love you forever. My idol.

Rushing Forward Fast

We had a history test today. The swiftness of writing answers, the way the sentences just flows out from my pencil, the feeling was so familiar and glad. I was not very hard working these past days, but this week, I am trying really hard to focus and study. I am so glad I found my passion for studying once again. I thought I lost it and never could find it again, never could be back on the top. Fortunately, I realized today I never should have given up hope, and it is not late yet, I just need to focus and study harder and more to be back on the top. I know and I swear, I will be back on the top. The world is just going to wait and see. Like the previous entry’s saying, “when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.” Yes, the tough is definitely going. Rushing. Forward. Fast.

Dr. Seuss

My sister has several of Dr. Seuss's books, and i have read them all. I really admire Dr. Seuss, how his poems all rhyme and have a specific meter. Most of his poems contain alot of made up things, but after reading them, you say, "hey, that kind of made sense!" Dr. Seuss has the power to make readers understand and explore his world. Also, his quotes, they are another big separate category that i love. His quotes include, The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you'll go.”, “I meant what I said and I said what I meant.”, “Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.” These are all famous quotes we've heard before.

In class/ Practice PSAT

We took a practice PSAT few days ago, i didnt do very well. I tell myself its all my fault. I should have studied more and payed full attention on the test. One excuse to make myself feel better is that i didnt take the sumer SAT classes the school had, while most of the other classmates had. However, it is simply just a stupid excuse. Our English teacher brought up the discussion of PSATs for a brief moment. He told us that the best way to improve our scores is read, read, and read. Like yesterday's topic for this journal, how i couldnt be descriptive in my essays. I saw a clear path, a true solution. It is reading. Like i mentioned before i read less than i used to when i was in 8th grade. However, i am really going to read, read, and read some more. I remember how all my english teachers i had so far told us to read, read, and read. The english teacher i had in 5th even made a specific time" DEAR: "drop everything and read." They were very memorable moment.He would say, "It's DEAR time." Perhaps, reading is really important. Perhaps, the most important part of learning literature, or even preparing for SATs. "Forget the SAT vocabulary books", our teacher said, "they are the most boring ways one can study for SATs. The fun-est way is reading." I am going to set his words as another survival tip in life and read, read, and read some more.

Instant Realization

I dont know how to be descriptive. No matter how many fantasy books i read, i just cant do it. I dont understand, they just dont come to me. When i write essays, the descriptive words just dont come to me. I have always wondered why they dont. As i write this blog, i understood. It is because my vocabulary is too short. If i know more vocabularies then, the more descriptive words i would know. Because i wanted to be more descriptive, i used to read alot of fantasy books an year ago. However, now, i am not as into fantasy books as before. Perhaps, i got impatient, and gave up in reading fantasy books. Again, as i write this blog entry, i realized that i shouldnt give up. There are many elements in life, and patience and never giving up perhaps are the most important ones. In conclusion, i'm just going to believe in them and never give up on my writing and keep improving on them.

Back to the black and white

So, after 12 hours of sleep, i woke up at 8 am today. I felt lazy from all the relaxing at the camp. On the other hand, it felt right to go back to the usual homework, studying, school, and facebook. So, after doing homeworks while being distracted constantly, i took a big break in the middle, only to find myself finally waking up to reality 2 hours later. Then, i needed to do my homework again. Then, facebook. The pattern went on and on, and i've only finished 2 homeworks, remaining 2........ perhaps it is destined for tomorrow. And again, speaking about black and white, and its opposite. We are having a practice test of SAT tomorrow. And i am now panikking here what i am supposed to do. I would just wish myself good luck and study some vocabularies.

Wednesday (Camp PAS)

It was the last day of camp, and it was heartbreaking. Well, not that severely though, sad. I enjoyed myself in the camp more than i expected i would be. We had to write reflections at the end. I wrote what we did. I didnt really put much thought into it. But i later realized that i should have. Everything should be done with care. Never drop the guard and be careful. I realized it again that day. Every little action would be discovered somehow. So, i learned another valuable lesson.Then, again, we were on the train. For another 4 hours. It was fun though. I lent my cards to a group of friends, and i went to find another group of friends and played cards with them. We played an extremely awkward game, where it requires alot of staring in the eyes, however, it was the best time.

Tuesday (Camp PAS)

It was the second day of camp. I was all sweaty and cold because of the blankets. Then, after breakfast, we went on bus for almost an hour and reached the rafting site. We rafted for over 4 hours. The scene was very dazzling. Every where was greens, greens, greens. The eagle was circling the sky. With the sound of water splashing, it was wonderful. Once in a while, we would pass small waterfalls. We would also encounter big and small rapids, and we would all have to get our feet in the raft and brace ourselves for the fun ride. It was very exciting. Then, we came back, and watched a performance by aboriginal groups. We had our own show, and it was alot of fun too. We didnt have a specific curfew, so we slept late, but it was a fun day.

Monday (Camp PAS)

After a 4 hour long train ride, mixed with a nap, chat with friends, a card game, and tent flag making, we finally arrived at the camp in Hualien. We set up our tent, and went down to the water park to play a small game. There were supposed to be 2 games but after one game, everyone started to play in the water park, so the 2nd game was cancelled. It was a fun moment. Then we moved to the paddling boat area. The paddling boat was also fun. I happened to sit on the seat where the direction control was. I had great pressure but i was fun and i enjoyed the fun time, though we only collected 2 out of 4 cards from the stations. Then, we had a BBQ party, again, it was fun. After that, we discussed our show for tomorrow as a team. Then we went to sleep after washing.

The Unknown

Our first quickwrite topic was "the Unknown." It was a topic where everyone is familiar with. It is ironic how we, everyone is familiar with the unknown, but in reality, we are very familiar with the unknown. In fact, we face it everyday. When we wake up in the mornings everyday, we face the unknown day. We dont know what is waiting for us. Even the weathe is the unknown, the people we shall meet on the subway, bus, street, are all the unknown. There are things that are especially the unknowns. They are new places, new experiences, new events. There is a true, typical unknown event coming up, the Camp PAS, which is tomorrow. We dont know what is waiting for us. Though i'm not as enthusiastic because i've been there last year, i still am excited about the unknowns waiting for us.

Small Dreams, and Acting First

Dreaming of a tomorrow, which tomorrow, will be as distant then as 'tis today.
Lope de Vega

Again, i love my dreams. However, i am not hardworking enough, and i really dislike myself for it. I wish that i would just focus on homework and stop going on social networking websites like facebook. I really do not have the power to stop myself from doing what i really want. However, that is the most important element and the key to success, the power of selfcontrol. I promise, from now on, i am not going to go on those kind of websites. I am going to restrict myself, challenge myself. Like the basketball coach said, we only have a limited amount of time. Everyone is given the same amount of time, the difference between those people is that some are focused and they use their time well, and some others who are bound to fail at the end, are always on facebook. I realized how scary this is. How horrifying the truth is. How life is. I've always been not so good at time keeping. Also, i hate myself for it. Always, at least before, it has been where time chases me. I was always late, 1mins, 3 mins, and 5 and 10. I really hate myself and scold myself everytime that happens. I wish, i would just stop chasing time, and instead let time catch up with me. And then, in the meantime, i would read and i would be using my time very well. I wish, i wish, i wish. However, i can not be wishing. I have to act. Bring the wish into action. Right now, my dream is not being a CEO of an famous, big, well- developed electronic company. My dream right now is to manage my time well, and have a lot selfcontrol, and then, i can, and i would most definitely, start dreaming.

Efficiency

Today, again there was basketball practice. We have 3 practices a week, on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. We run drills, then do pushups, situps, and suicides, even running up and down the stairs 3 times! There was also the boys' basketball game against the Kuangfu's boy basketball team. Both of the teams were very skilled. I wish i could be like them, as skilled. Almost all their attempts of shoots got in. They were very impressive. These days, practices feel miserable. I didnt understand the defending strategies. The other team members understand, but only i dont. So, the coach told me to stand aside and just watch, for two practices already! I felt sad but i know that I had to try harder. I need to try harder. The coach said everyone has a given amount of time of learning. Everyone learns the same thing. The difference made is how you practice on your own. It doesnt matter if the coach tells you how to do it ten times, it is more important to do it yourself once. It is what makes you standout, how you could be better than others. He said an example, Kuangfu practices day and night, everday for hours on ends, but our school's team practied 3 times a week. The coach said: "It's all about efficiency." I was very touched by his words. My parents told me, to use my time wisely. Today, another door opened. I realized another important element of life, efficiency. It is what makes you different from everyone else. It goes the same for studying, too, most definitely. So, i am, going to, from today, really use time wisely, focus on the given time, and efficiency, efficiency, and efficiency.

Music

If a composer could say what he had to say in words he would not bother trying to say it in music.
Gustav Mahler

Music is wonderful. I have always admired people who say "music is my life." I've wanted to say that very much myself. I played the piano for several years but stopped when i was in elementary school. However, now i also play the flute and classical guitar. I've wanted to say that. I've also always loved singing, listening to music, dancing. My life was all about music, as i think of it. I am having these thoughts because we had orchestra today. We were playing the marriage of figaro. We saw a short video of a famous conductor. The conductor seemed so zealous. He was smiling all the way. He was truely enjoying music. Feeling the music. Living with the music. I was awed. Also, the quote above is about composers. I've attempted to compose some musics myself, however, perhaps i need more practice, i couldnt compose a long one, instead, just a short, simple one. It was good enough for starters, in my opinion, i named it "Autum." It was fun. Perhaps, i could turn my life into music. My life is music. It is about music, but just a part of it. I am going to develop more hobbies that can represent me, and my life.

Imagination and Fantasy

I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, and that enables you to laugh at life's realities. - Dr. Seuss

I love Dr. Seuss. He is my idol. The author I look up to. His poems are in perfect rhyme and meter. In this quote, he talks about fantasy. Last year, I was very obessed with fantasy. However, over the summer, I got a wakeup call, a Aha moment, a lightbulb moment, you name it. I did, get the moment of realization. It was that fantasy are a waste of time. I thought that way and was into classics only at that time. Now, as i read Dr. Seuss' quote, i think, perhaps fantasy is a wonderful thing. Perhaps, i just read the wrong fantasy, experienced the wrong fantasy. However, there are no rights and wrongs of literature. It all depends on how the reader analyzes it. The fantasy i encountered, the faries, werewolves, vampires, there are neccessary elements of fantasy. I should read them once in a while, but i think the best sellers like Lord of the rings, and Harry potter, are better fantasies. They are perhaps more educational than others because they are best sellers. In the quote above, i especially liket he part wehre he says looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. I wonder how to do that though. I am also confused about the last part, laugh at life's realities. So, does that mean imagination is important? Fantasy are a big part of our lives? Stop being so serious about life? Whatever the quote means, I'm going to appreciate fantasy, respect it, read it, love it. Also, I'm going to life my one and only life to the fullest and regret nothing.

Life is a Movie

Nowadays, I do think life is a movie. Everyone kept saying "life is a movie, life is a movie," around me, i never understood why people were acting. However, today, i did understand. I do have to act. I act, simply because i can not do it. I really want to be true. I dont want to act, I want it to be me, but i can't do it. Once, i read in a book, it said, "Fake it until you make it." That line had a big impact on me. Whenever i couldnt do it, i just faked it, but i'm not an actress, i couldnt act. I learned, though i cant act, though i'm not an actor, i will keep on acting. I know i shouldnt act, instead, i should be true in behavoirs. So, i've decided, to truely fake it until i make it.

Doubt and Faith

Doubt is a pain too lonely to know that faith is his twin brother. Khalil Gibran

It is quite confusing what this means. However, i think i can figure it out. Doubt is a scary thing. Between two close people, there shouldnt be any doubt. It must be complete trust in order for them to be close. On the other hand, there should be doubt, so we can avoid danger. However, living life should not have much doubt. Even if there is doubt, like the quote says, there should always be faith with. Having lots of faith is a good thing. It means you are a optimistic person, and usually, optimistic people succeed more. There should be doubt but not to the point where the whole person becomes totally pesimistic.

Wonderful, Pleasant life

A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life. - Charles Darwin. 

Soon now, i have realized all i write in my journal is the mistakes i make all day. I have realized, like, Charles Darwin said, i should not waste my valuable time by making stupid mistakes. Life is very important. Everyone has only one life. It depends on how a person treasure it, care for it. I should stop all the mistakes i am making now, and live life well. I should live life without regret. I should live life to the fullest. Few days ago in Mr. Dahl's English class, our class discussed, how the world is not a pleasant place to be without someone. Of course, there is always the need of someone to hold on to, someone to be held by. However, the teacher did a quick survey on how people react to the world being a pleasant place to be in. A little more than half of the class said the world is not a pleasant place. I wondered: 'How could they think that? The world is such a pleasant place to be in, to live in!' The topic sort of confused me though, did it mean the world as in the planet Earth or as in Life? I interpreted as life. Life is really wonderful and pleasant. Everyday, i'm grateful that i'm alive. Though i make many mistakes along the way, i would like to think of them as lessons and experiences i have to learn in order for me to not to it the second time. However, i do make the same mistakes twice. It is definitely not acceptable, but i am learning. I really hope, i would stop making mistakes, and learn fast, not waste time, and live life to the fullest.

Big Big Mistake

I seem to cause trouble or make mistakes all the time these days. I really dislike myself for it. First, is that my parents only allows me to use my laptop in a room other than my own, so i wouldnt lock myself up and go on social networking sites. However, because in highschool, there are 1 or 2 classes that requires laptops. So, i gradually started to settle my laptop in my room. I know I am not listening  to my parents like i should be, but hey, i'm a teenager. So, because of that, i started sleeping at 2 or 3 oclock. I have to keep reminding myself of my golden rules and tips for survival. Some people act without thinking. They act without putting themselves in other peoples' shoes, and doesnt care whether they feel uncomfortable somehow. Today, i made a very big mistake. We, our class, had a meeting. Some said it would end in half an hour, some said an hour. Many people were taking time, thinking carefully about our topic for a show, but i was just desperate. I had promised someone to get something for them. I learned long ago, that promises are not to be broken. So, i left the class meeting early. I made an appointment with a taxi driver i know, and i told her to come at 4:45 yesterday. So i left the class meeting at 4. I should have put myself in other classmates' shoes. It seemed like i didnt participate alot. I left very bad today. I promise myself and mark a star beside a new tip for survival : "Tolerance, and Putting Yourself in others' shoes."

Reminders

I guess I've setted up my own tips on "Becoming Successful," which I call them Golden Tips, instead of Golden Rules. Some tips are neat handwriting, reading many books, studying hard, being good at sports and music, making right decisions, not being late, and never leave things till the last day. For examples, school projects, i have heard teachers' advices for not leaving projects till the night before they're due. Shamefully, I had done exactly that many times. I know in my heart and mind that i should get started on projects earlier. I need to remind myself of my Golden Tips. Also, this Golden Tip also goes for homeworks. On fridays, as known as the Thank-God-It's-Friday friday, I'm not thanking god, I'm praying to god that i wont leave my homeworks till Sunday night. However, this freshmen year, I'm seeing a change in myself, i did some homeworks on Saturday night. Still, I'm up till late on this very Sunday night. However, since I'm in highschool now, I've promised myself not to forget to do my assignments (which includes not forgetting to bring them), and being a top A student. I know this isn't a perfect start, but today, I got a wake-up-call. I am promising myself, for the second and last time, I'm going to have a perfect, impressive Freshmen year and grades.

Passion, Interest, Hobby, Confusion

Today was Moon Festival, so our family went to BBQ near a stream. It was like a area where people come and pay money to BBQ. Then, around 1 hour later we arrived, the owners of the place and a group of christians came to perform for us. The performance that i remember most clearly was a dance performance. It was just a plain dance performance to a kpop song, and the performers were little kids from 6 to 12. I used to be really passionate about my dancing hobby. I used to go to dance classes but not anymore. Therefore, I forgot about my passion for dancing. However, today, it was conjured up suddenly while watching the performance. I also used to have great passion for skatboards, as well as drawing, and other hobbies. I wish my hobby didn't change so often. It may mean that I dont have a strong mind. Currently, my hobby is photography. I really wish that this time, my hobby would be permenant. I would love to have a hobby that could stick with me for the rest of my life.

AHA day

Once, our teacher told us something about the "aha moment" where you realize something, well my memory is kind of blurry. Today, it felt like a AHA day. It was like a new door opened? I'm not quite sure. However, today was very special and i am sure of it. We had clubs today, and my club is the best in the world, i can say. It is the mobile app development club. When i first noticed the club options on the bulletin board, it stood out to me immediately. It was like i could only see that club. I chose community service before the year started, but when i saw there the was mobile app development club, i changed clubs immediately and i never regreted my choice. Sadly, next semester i have to change my club to orchestra because i am in orchestra and later in the year, we work with the musical so we would practice more. However, i am just going to learn and enjoy while i can. So, today, we installed the java (though i still am not very clear on what it is) and we installed some software development tool (SDK) for android. It was an emulator, which was a smart phone and a tablet in the computer. However, the calling and camera function does not work. On the other hand, the email and google works! I was stunned by the things i've discovered today. Since my dream is to become a CEO of an electronic company, what i learned today was extremely priceless. I am really greatful to Mr. Carlos, who helped us through all the miracles of today.