May 31, 2012 (Ay me!)

Sigh, the English exam, well I dont even want to talk about it. Oh no, I just remembered we have an expository writing exam on next monday! Oops, I only remembered the chapter test on next tuesday. And hell during next wednesday, thursday, and friday. Oh gosh, I kind of regret joining the orchestra. I like being surrounded by music, and I should say I regret joining since I am not that good in it in the first place. However, I think the students all deserve a little fun, partying with classmates, and watching movies with free food and popcorn. I can cry you a river thinking of how I am going to miss all that fun rehearsalling in some annoying auditorium. Oh gosh, i am so going to bring my iphone and watch movies there. No ones going to stop me. Ay me!

May 30, 2012 (Lead)

Well that lead in my mind is gone, though it will be back on thursday night. The "lead" I mean here is the heavy pressure in my mind. Well, I guess you describe pressure as on your shoulders, or is that responsibility? Anyways, finishing the first part of the English final is a great relief. I wonder how much I scored though. I feel okay about it, but you know, sometimes, the score comes out opposite of what you expected, and I really dont want that. It is quite annoying. I would like to be strong till the last moment. However, I cant use the word "still" since in the middle of the school year, I was a mess. And I still am, but whatever, the school year is ending anyways.

May 29, 2012 (Really like today)

I like today, for some reason. Perhaps it's because there are no finals today. In math class it was fun, I was actually listening and paying close attention. I like math, however, when there are endless questions we have to answer and solve, I get pretty annoyed. Anyways, today is a good day, but I am sleepy. Oh, I hate this cycle of sleeping late and waking up late, and getting the whole day ruined. I just cant fall asleep though. Anyhow, today is a good day. It was a wonderful day, and I am really grateful to be alive and still take tests. Is that sarcasm? Well, I dont know, and I dont know whether I will do good on my test tomorrow, either.

May 28, 2012 (Easy life, no.)

Yes, it is not a easy life. Sigh, 4 finals, and a possible pop quiz for history. Hm... is that a good life. Though the title indicated that I dont think so, and the first sentence too, I still think it is a good life. What can be easier than sitting and studying? I wouldnt want to sell gum at the train station, like our former English teacher use to chant. It was inspirational since I'm sure most of the people in our class would not want that. To prevent working in those conditions, we would have to work hard, and be persistent, not giving up. (Like how I almost did, and wonder whether I did or not) I wish not. I hope not. I really wish I would get good scores, at least.

May 27, 2012 (Already)

Oh MUN is finally over!!! Actually, it wasnt bad as I thought it would be. However, I made very very few speeches, which is one. I'm not sure about whether I'll attend future conferences, but..... anyways, i'll leave that to consideration later. So, today was not a well day spent since i still have unfinished homework. Sigh. Actually, i've progressed through English homework, but the sad ending prevents me from reading. I really dont like sad endings. I know happy endings are cliche and boring, but I adore them. To fully appreciate the usage of adore, I meant it in french, meaning LOVE. I love happy endings. Oh, I love them and I believe in them.

May 24,2012 (DEAD, probably)

Oh, I dont want to sound like I'm whining, and to be honest I am actually. However, I'm just being honest. It's not like I'm going to hide that I really am bad at public speaking. I really dont like it. Especially, when tomorrow, there is another MUN conference. Oh, I dont want to become something I'm not supposed to be. However, I am actually these days. Oh please, how am I going ot fi this and get back on track? Sigh, this is really really horrible. If only I could get bck to before. However, why should I keep talking about this? Its not like this change in a day or anything. I think and know that this requires time and all that, I really am a mess.

May 23, 2012 (Yay)

Tomorrow, it will be PASMUN. Oh how I dread it, and I honestly do not care anymore who knows it or not. Yes, it is fun and interesting, but it is still scary and I found out I hate public speaking. I really am really nervous when I'm up stage. Well, in general, I just have stage fright. I hate that too. Oh, tomorrow, is going to SUCH a long day. I wish it would be over in a few minutes, but in reality, it is actually around 4 hours or something. Oh, and tomorrow, we will finish our math tests, a hard one. Then, we would have to take a test on THE ODYSSEY. oh good god. Then, I probably would have to face a history test I probably failed. OH good lord. Where's a good life?

May 22, 2012 (Guitar string)

So when I was doing my homework. Well, technically I was but I guess I kinda got off track, and was watching a video. Then, my guitar string suddenly broke. Well, it's not something that's rare. I mean, my teacher told me that it happens quite often. However, I've only learned and played the guitar for about a year, and didnt practice alot. I know I should practice more. I hate myself for not practicing. However, the string suddenly broke. It was surprising. Perhaps it is an omen or sign, that predicts the future and tries to warn me or stop me from getting off track. However, it is really bad that the string broke. Ugh. I know I am going to get back to work now.

May 21, 2012 (Oh, Spring fair)

So yesterday was the big day- Spring fair. I'm writing about this today since I've organized my thoughts and feelings from the event and am ready to share it. Okay, so yay, everyone's excited. Except, the weather was horrible, and everyone's shoes were caked in mud. Really caked. We even had to scrape off, or wash off the whippings of the cake. Someone even had a constant lump of mud forming in their shoes (laugh). However, it was exciting, we sold mexican food, which the local people here barely recognized. The majority of the customers were foreigners or people from our school. Well, it was a fun experience. I was the cashier, though my job was shared by many other helping hands. However, one thing I didnt like was that some people simply disappeared for most of the event, and some stayed for the whole time. It was unfair. We were supposed to have shifts but no one even cared. I wish we could do better on this part next year. Oh, next year, sigh.

May 20, 2012 (Never say Never)

I dont really like this phrase, it's quite ironic. However, I guess technically it is trying to say never say you'll give up, or something. Well, it's a phrase that's supposed to be somewhat inspiring and motivating. However, I never reallly understood the meaning of it, so it's no use to me. What's in a motivational phrase? They are helpful, arent they? However, some people are just "immune" to them. Hint: me! I am very very immune to those inspriational, motivational phrases. Well, they're awesome to hang on the wall, and people may see it and say, "Hey, this person is very motivated and keeps moving forward!" Oh please, I am absolutely not like that. I wish that the phrases would have an effect on me, but i just heard them too many times, and it got... it lost its meaning to me. Well, I guess it'll be some help if I look up more phrases/quotes.

May 17, 2012 (Easy Life)

There are so many things going on these days. And today, it is finally our basketball game! Oh, and this time, the coach and the most of the team members think that we can finally win this time. I am kind of nervous, and I wished I had stopped and slept really early so I wont be yawning during the game. Oh I really wished that I slept earlier. There are other things going on. For example, our spring fair, and half of the class havent handed me the budget money, and I'm the cashier! Sigh, it is a big responsibility. Then, we have a musical practice later that day,which is quite long and sudden. Oh, I wished summer break was here already.

May 16, 2012 (Basketball game)

Yes, we have another basketball game coming up tomorrow. In some ways I am excited, and in some other ways, I am very very nervous. I am number 2 in the team, which i guess is named the point guard. It is such big pressure. I like leadership and all, but I'm still not used to it. I am not as experienced as a leader. However, i certainly hope that these kinds of expereicnes can help me get ready for the future leader career I am going to have. I will just think these as leadership practices, AND of course, basketball skill practices, but I will not take them for granted and just do whatever. i'll actualy put great effort and care to learning basketball.

May 15, 2012 (SO many things)

There are just so many things happening around me I hope that I really can remember and do them all right. There are so many responsibility, tasks, and homework and tests to worry about. Along with MUN resolutions. Ugh. Why does the end of the school year have to be so miserable? Not to mention the performance of the Muscial. I am in the orchestra and the pieces are hard! We have a fun fair this weekend and I'm one of the cashiers. i hope everyone would bring the money for the budget and materials by tomorrow. Oh how I wish things were so much easier where no pressure, just fun fun fun.

May 14, 2012 (Normal again)

I guess i'm back to being normal again. That is a very wonderful thing and I think I should drink to that. (Well, i'm not old enough to drink though.) Well, I guess I'll just smile happily for a full 5 minutes instead of drinking. Sigh, but I shouldnt be smiling like an idiot since I still have homework to finish. Yeah, some stuff I kinda a little too angry to talk about happened, which missing the taxi ride home caused me to get home late. Argh! And I still have so much more to finish. Oh, and this week sunday is the fun fair. Bring it on! Let's get it over with.

May 13, 2012 (Changes, habits and movie)

I know, again, I'm going to talk about changes. Do you know how hard it is to change? Especially habits. I detest habits. They are so extremely hard to fix. Or is it un-fix. Whatever that means. Anyways, habits are really hard to fix. That's why there is a specific word for that right? Or else it would just be called continous motions or something. Anyways, everytime you tell yourself you're going to change, and you dont the next day. Right away. My main point here is actually about non-stopping using the computer. Ugh. I really detest that. Along with searching for books and movies. I, I mean , J'adore, a.k.a I love, movies, and now.... I really want to watch a movie. So bad! I want to watch the Hunger games. Also, I've found that there is a second movie, the sequel coming out! I saw it on IMDB.com. I can't wait to watch it! Though I've still got a half of the second book and the third to finish. Though i've got very off topic, these are whats on my mind right now.

May 10, 2012 (Not eventful)

Okay. I lied in the title. This whole month, is so extrememly eventful. However I am trying hard to avoid that topic in the journals, and part trying to ignore the fact that I am pressured. Oh well, it's just life anyways, right? Okay, so let me find myself a better topic. Never mind, I'm just going to talk about how small these eventful moments for me now will seem so happy and carefree for me later on in life. Of course, later on when I actually do get a real job, I would feel more pressured and everyday, or every month, would be so much more eventful for me. However, like i said before, if things werent so eventful, then I would live a very very mundane life. Thank you, all the gods for making my life so fun.

May 9, 2012 (Broke.)

Okay, I couldnt post this and the next blog the day they're supposed to written because my laptop broke. More specifically, I broke it. Extra specifically, my carelessness broke it. Most accurately, my carelessness didnt think about being careful. Okay, I dont know what I'm talking about. One thing I'm sure about is that I hate myself for being so careless. Actually, I dont think it was an accident, breaking my laptop, I mean. If I had been more careful, that wouldnt have happened. I am quite annoyed at repeating If I had been more..... Isnt that what people always say? If only it was different...... however, the thing/event already happened, whats the use of wishing it was different?

May 8, 2012 (Sleep)

Once again I learned today of the important importance of sleep. Sleep is really important. It can make the best day ever, or ruin your whole day. Because I slept so late yesterday, it is what happened to me: ruined my day. I know I should have learned from my past mistakes, believe me, I've done that before too. Also, today i've learned that if I could alter my actions and fate, then I should hurry up and try to make the best choices and control my fate in my own hands. Today was pretty eventful, or not, I cant remember since I was so tired today, my whole day just passed by in a blur. I wouldnt want that again, so I'm going to go to sleep.

May 7, 2012 (Changes)

I've always like little changes. The everyday-the-same monotonous things always bored me. I mean, changes arent bad are they? I like changes. Well, here mostly I'm focusing on my new hairstyle, but whatever it doesnt really matter. However, I like new things, new changes. For example, new songs I've found awesome: I just keep repeating them over and over again, till I get bored of them. The thing I never got bored of was hairstyle, I guess. This time I just changed it so that I can actually finally see things. Ugh, stupid bangs were keep piercing my eyes. I wish I could do something more dramatic, like dye the tips of the back hair red. (I saw a singer doing it, and I thought it was cool) Anyways, I'm not going to even go there about how I like extreme stuff. Oh, I always like a little change in everything.

May 6, 2012 (Music and emotions)

I'm pretty sure you all saw online about "I love it when music describes exactly how I feel
." I'm sure also that most people had felt that at least once. I love it, too. It's so awesome, and that you can just sing along with real emotions. Also, people can listen to songs that make them feel good. For example, people who got their hearts broken can listen to songs about how they don't need love. Also, if they are in love, it can be the other way around, listening to songs all about butterflies in their stomachs. So what do people listen to when they arent in love or heart broken? I guess its both, then. I love both types of songs.

May 3, 2012 (Test)

I really dont think my life these days are eventful at all, so that's why I'm going to post about a geometry test tomorrow. Oh, I really wish I will not forget to bring  a calculator to school tomorrow. I wish that I could forget about everything and just play play and play. Or read, read, and read more is fine too. Oh, how I wish summer vacation comes sooner. I dont want MUN conference, musical performance and another finals week before the vacation. Oh how I want a summer vacation. Oh how happy would I be without all the pressure, to wake up and do nothing but play and read. I would very much like that.

May 2, 2012 (Sleep and PE class)

You know how sleep affets a student's life so much? The less sleep you get, the wore you'll perform in school the next day. I really really hate that. However, I have cant fall asleep at all at night. I really dont like that. I wish I could fall asleep the second I hit the bed. Is that even possible? Most of my clasmates dont have problem with falling asleep. I guess its just me and the minority. Oh, today in PE there was a fitness test, and frisbee golf. I gues frisbee golf was fun, I like both sport, frisbee and golf and so if they're combined, the more fun!

(May 1, 2012) Labor Day

So today was Labor Day, and I figured out that teachers do not have a day off. Awww, that is sad for them. However, they get so much longer summer breaks compared to other workers. What should I be when I grow up? I was sure about it in the past months, or past years, however, I 'm not so sure about it nowadays. Sigh, I wish I knew what I wanted to do. My friend Angela knows, but Alyssa's not sure. I wish I knew though, so I could work toward it and make myself keep going no matter what the hardships are.