April 30, 2012 (You would always want what you cant get

People are constantly complaining. They want this, they want that. I dont think its a good habit, but still, I think being gratefult to everything you have already is good enough. I guess this blog post is inspired by how much i would like to visit an american library, and such heaven it would be. However, I have to be grateful. I have whole mountains of fantasy books piled so high. Which I am so guilty of spending all the precious money on. If only there was a library. See what i did there? Again, I was wishing for something I dont have. However, I shall be grateful. These days, i'm just so tired. Actually, its only today, that I'm tired. Oh there was basketball practice and PE class. Two combined is just a mess. Oh, but I guess I still have to be grateful for that too.

April 29, 2012 (Songs about friendship)

After the poetry section in our English class, I've been keeping an eye out for the songs that actually seem poetic. I know all songs technically count as poems, but still, i like poems/ songs that rhyme. I like to see those obvious poetic elements. Also, I've been looking for songs that are actually more about life and friendship. All those songs out there are about love and heartbreaks. Oh, they are so cliche and boring. I wish I could compose songs too. However, I'm pretty sure my lyrics are going to be more about life and other things, rather than oh, he left her or i'm breaking. Oh gosh, how boring they seem.

April 26, 2012 (What happened?)

This week, I am just bad. Plain bad. I can not focus. i can not sleep. I can not remember things. Oh, what is happening to me? Sigh, will there be a day that I will stop living in such a bad state? Today, right here right now, I would like to confess about the "sins" that I've recently done. Well, they arent exactly "Sins" but they are bad mistakes and things that I wish to correct. I wish I could be more organized and clean. I wish that I would stop forget things and prepare beforehand. I wish that I could be focused on the studies rather than other time consuming things. I'm not saying my hobbies are bad or anything, they are in fact the total opposite : My hobbies are awesome. To me, hobbies are not a waste of time. Wait, do people actually think that? I guess not. Wait, there's more I have to confess. I wish I had greater, unlimited imagination and a more open mind, and a kinder heart. I wish I had all that, so that I could understand others more, and understand and help myself more.

April 25, 2012 (Stress.)

I'm re-writing this blog post because just now I accidently deleted it. So, as far as I remember, I was wrirting something about stress of the week being gone since the World War II history test is over. Also, I have had a very bad day and I described about. Its a shame that I accidently deleted it. Ahhhh! Nooooo! Anyways, it was indeed a messed up day. I forgot to bring my pencil case to school, and we had a history test. Then I forgot to bring an important workbook for English class, which we were clutching on to for most of the period. Sigh, I asked my self in the middle of the day whether if things could get any worse? The answer is, yes! We had to do fitness during practice, it is good for us, but still, it was very tiring. Other than that, the rest of the day after lunch, before basketball, was alright.

April 24, 2012 (Yes, here is another one)

Oh no. Here we go again and again. Anyways, today's topic is going to be about student's life. Ugh. I know everyone hates homeworks and tests. Well, at least I assume so. I hate it too! Yay! Anyway, my point isnt that today. Today, my point is that what we seem or think that we hate the most, may be the things that we will treasure and love the most later on. Everyday, we do homework and study for stupid tests, but later on in life, I think we will reflect back and say, "Oh, that was the easiest thing I could possibly find!" Since studying and doing homework is easy as eating or sleeping. Well, if you try and focus hard enough, that is. But later on in life, there are going to more hard things than just ordinary homework. You're gonna need to find a job, maintain and think about all the income and outcome and pressure from work, being there on time, satisfying your boss, having good social terms with your colleauges. I know thats going to be beyond difficult. So I might as well start appreciating homeworks and tests. But boy, that would be hard.

April 23, 2012 (Writers and their magic)

It is so amazing how writers have magic. They can create a whole world with their words. I am referring to the Hunger Games Triology, and the Author Suzanne Collins. I really like that series. It is so amazing how the author describes the story in such realistic details that it is believable. I really admire her, and I wish someday soon I can also compose such wonderful stories like hers. Yes, there are wonderful authors like her, but there are also bad authors. Those bad authors don't go in dept in description, which is hard for readers to really be in the story, as in be in the characters' shoes. I think the reason there are bad authors is that their imagination is limited, just like mine, which is not a good thing. Going back to the point that imaginations can be limited, I wish that I had more imagination. I've tried writing stories before, but I rush things and dont go in dept to describe. So that usually all my stories are really hard to believe and they sound fake. Oh, I wish that I could have unlimited amount of imagination.

April 22, 2012 (Laugh it all out later)

I kept diaries before, and once in a long while I would go back and read them. Most of the time, I think, what was I thinking, or doing back then? Oh gosh, I didnt know how to livel life to the fullest. Yes, after reading I would laugh and criticize myself. However, after all that, I am still me. I am still the same me. Sigh, i know that habits can't just change over night. Well, I guess it helps to change little by little, but everyone knows that its hard to change habits. Anyways I really would like to live life wisely. Sure, and later I'll find myself day dreaming about some other things again. Then criticize myself. Then laugh. Oh well, this blog post is just another thing I'll laugh and criticize about later, in the future.

April 19, 2012 (Inside you)

I personally think inside everyone, is a kid. A kid that gets angered easily, jealous easily, or happy easily. Perhaps it's just me, but I think many other teens or adults feel that way. As in human nature is the same all along. I guess we cant help it. We just cant. We feel the same things while we grow up and still feel like a kid. I guess when someone is truely an adult is when they overcome the emotions, childlike emotions, that is; and if feel it still, not show it. That is when someone truely grows up, when either they are good at hiding the emotions or not feel them at all. I wish I can do that too. I wish I could grow up faster I guess.

April 18, 2012 (Life)

I feel bad these days, for some reason. I hope I will "get well" soon. Haha. Is "Haha" a fragment? Anyways, I just wish these days that life wouldnt get any worse. Actually, life is just fine these days, exceptions like other activities exsist, but still, life is good. In fact, let me have a moment to be grateful. Thank you. I am grateful that I have each day to live. I am grateful that I am still alive. I am grateful to my family and friends, teachers, and enemies. (Ok that is a run-on sentence! Or is it?) I am grateful that I am happy. I am grateful to exist and live in this world. However, I am not so grateful that I am lazy. I hate that I am lazy and my concentration is bad. I get easily distracted. Sigh, is there a way to make this right?

April 17, 2012 (You've gotta stop that.)

You've gotta stop that. I've gotta stop that. Seriously. I have this "issue" (not going to say problem) of constantly talking to myself. I know my imagination is limited, and I cant imagine talking to an imaginary friend. I never even had one during my childhood. Sigh, I really wanted one. Anyways, this just shows how my imagination is limited. I dont understand, since I'm not talking to an "imaginary friend" who am I talking to? I've gotta stop talking and saying all those useless things. Also, I dont know why but these days I'm just forming this habit of scrowling. Gosh, what am I? A tiger (or a cat)? I do NOT scrowl! Gosh. I should stop these "imprudent" mistakes. Habits are so hard to get rid of. So I need to start now. Changing, I mean. I guess I can start reading a really really awesome book. It's just that my book today was so boring. Gosh. I need  to read a new book. Whatever about persistency.

April 16, 2012 (Pretend it)

Fake it until you make it, is quite hard. It's quite very very hard. I want to fake it. Pretend it. However, it is so hard. Primarily, I'm talking about imagination here. Imagining stories. However, sometimes imagining can be hard, it can be impossible. After two seconds you lose track of it. Sigh, it is very very difficult, you can see. Can you imagine well? I dont believe that imagination is just a small amount. You can have little or a lot of imagination. However, imagination of one can be limited. It takes time, practice and reading. I guess I've read enough about fantasy stuff last year, so I guess I just need more time and practice. I think imagination is an important skill. I'm not so sure about whether it is an important skill now, but I still think it is worthwhile to have some imagination.

April 15, 2012(Refreshed and emotions)

Yes, after some big changes in peoples' lives they feel refreshed and that they will have another good new start. Well, not so much as big changes but just tiny little bits of eventful events in their lives. I had a whole week of "eventful events" but I dont think I'm going to have some kind of refreshening new start whatsoever. Perhaps I may feel refreshed, but I dont think any of my daily routines or behavior are going anywhere. I dont know why I'm mentioning this, but life is interesting, human are interesting, emotions are interesting. I dont know why I'm talking about so many different things of so many categories, but today, I feel the need to talk about emotions especially. It is funny how strong emotions can be. People would do anything, out of fear or love. Which type of emotions are the strongest, you may ask? Out of grief, happiness, lonliness, fear, and love, I would chose love to be the strongest emotions. Yes, love makes a person weak, as in they would care less about other things, and just their lover. However, in situations weighing life or death, I think the power of love would automatically make the right decisions for them. To me though, now that I finally realized, is that love, is the weakest emotion of all.

April 12, 2012 (TaiMUN)

TaiMUN would be so interesting! The more fun since we miss school. However, missing school is not fine at all. I thought the conference would be on the weekends? Since it is not a oversea conference. Oh gosh, why do we have to mis school for some MUN conference? Dont get me wrong, they are important, very very important. However, I dont think it is important enough to miss school. Gosh, we pay for school days! Then we pay for the hotel fee. Gosh! I seriously hope that we can just do this on the weekends, so that I would miss classes all together. However, those classes are still money so technically it would still be the same thing, wasting money. However, I believe that an good experience is worth something. However, we already had a experience, HsinMUN, and we sacrificed our very first basketball game for that. I guess no pain, no gain.

(April 11, 2012) Day before Taimun

Tomorrow, we're leaving for taimun! This week is probably the most event week of the school year (of course, exceptions of midterm and final weeks) However, we had two basketball games, missed a day of school so far, and are going to miss two more school days! I know this is bad, like very very bad. Why miss school days? It is worse than actually having the classes, since we miss all that stuff and have to catch up. Do you know how hard it is to catch up, on anything. On any topic. Seriously. Right now, I just want to play, but I cant. There are so many things to do. Sigh, I want to watch movies right now! I'll have to bear through the two days and work hard so I can play again. I personally like the usage of the word "play" because it makes me sound like a kid and I miss the carefree childhood days. :) I sound like I'm so old now. Oh gee, is that a paradox?

April 10, 2012 (Other topics)

Today was probably a day that many things happened and how many things crossed my mind, but the one I want to walk about is how people want to run away from reality; that discovering somethings just makes matters worse, they want to just live with what they know. Well and yes, I am talking about this because I feel the same way too. Maybe finding out something new but bad about the thing you like makes matters worse. You were actually better off without knowing any more things. I know, this is not true with basic knowledge like classics, world news, or historical facts. I hope you get what I mean. There are sometimes, certain things where people do feel that they were better off not learning them. Learning is good. I'm just sayings. There are situations that contradict that widely believed statement: Learning is good.

(April 9, 2012) Some more sigh.

I seriously hate, detest, abhor, and (any other synomyns out there), the way I lose track of time. Seriously why am I so bad at time management? Reading a book, watching few videos and boom, ten o'clock. However the comforting part is that I'm not the only one. I'm pretty sure there are a FEW people out there that spents more time on the computer than for homework. Sigh. This is a horrible horrible disease, or whatever. I really need to stop this. How hard can it be, you ask. Very very hard. You look at the time, (or some dont even bother to sneak a peek) then you think just ten more minutes, and I'll be done with this book/ movie. Obsesssion is indeed a scary thing. If only I could stop myself. (Just like how my friend wishes she could stop watching dramas (wink wink) Haha) I know how you feel! Sigh. Sigh. And some more sigh.

April 7, 2012 (Back to school)

Ugh, I just can not imagine that we would have to go back to school tomorrow. The break went so fast. Time was too short. No! Now that I have had a taste of break, I would like to have my summer break now. Waiter! I would like the "summer break dish." "Coming right up, kid." If only things were like that. Oh look. The break kind of brainwashed me and I know I sound weird. Anyways, I still think few more days of break would be nice, you know? I bet you do. Everyone LOVES breaks! Right? Am I right? I hope we didnt have any homework, because I didnt do any homework this week. Oh, how am I going to readjust to the busy school days again? Oh. Oh. Oh. If only, if only.