Things now are not how they were before.

I dont want to sound like I am going to jump out the window any second, but I just feel nothing these days. I used to do great in school. An Algebra I test tomorrow? I dont care, an open book test anyways- and i go to sleep. A life science worksheet due tomorrow? Just do it in class, no big deal, the teacher never notices. English test? I read the story already. I never had a problem throughout middle school. I was careless, yes, i admit, but it was never a problem for me. I was never hard working, but average, sometimes good, sometimes ok, depending how long I simply skimmed through the pages. However, this year, a new freshmen year, the first year of highschool, I realized, it is not like middle school anymore. I can not simply fool around and expect myself to pass the subjects. I finally realized now I would have to wake up and start to live life seriously in order for me to not just sell gum at the train station, like our 8th grade english teacher used to say. I was started to fall behind, and I asked my friends for suggestions. Well, i knew they were more hardworking than I was, all through last year, but i didnt know till now, how hard working they were. All the time I was simply bobbing my head to music, they were studying, reading, reviewing. I regret all the time I have wasted. While they were memorizing every detail in the book, I was on Facebook. I would like to wake up now, I am trying to change these days, I really am. I hardly go on Facebook nowadays, but I still can't focus. I hope with all my heart that with a certain amount of time, I would get back on tract. Till then, I am going to be very hardworking and pray.