Connections to historical events and larger world

What we are learning these days in History and MUN is really having a huge impact on me. What we are learning in History is the French revolution. During the Reign of Terror, anyone who was suspected to be against the revolution or had anything to do with the Old Older had their head chopped by the Guilotine. I know this is a silly thought, but a part of my dinner happened to be a shirmp. We all know how to eat a shirmp: Cut the head off, then peal off the legs, and strip its shell-like top off. I felt so bad eating that shirmp. This is also connected to genocides. We watched a documentary film on genocides last Friday. For example, in Rwanda, the people eliminating others would use a machete and chop a person into pieces. I felt as bad when I was eating the shirmp. I think I should be a vegetarian if I feel so bad eating a shirmp. But I can not help but feeling bad. I am really sorry. I am really sorry for the people who died in the French revolution, no, everyone who died in any kind of conflict, and the mass group of people who died in genocides. I understand peacekeeping is difficult, but I wish the UN could achieve that someday, if it is ever possible.