Responsibilites- You wanna be the leader?

After a camp I went to during the summer, I have gained more confidence, and leadership. However, something proves that I still am not THAT confident. Today, I RE-realized the responsibility that comes with leadership. In order to be a leader, you would have to sustain the heavy responsibilites, and you have to have the ability to handle it well. Today was our annual sports day. There was an award for the most team spirit. Well, our team got 3rd, tied with another team. Want to hear a funny thing? There is only four teams! Obviously, we got tied because of the pity points. The team we were tied with even had a student play saxphone while screaming their chant. Theirs' was far better than ours. Even a rock can tell that. Okay, maybe not a rock, but you get what I mean. Do you know what ours sounded like? The back row was one line faster than the front row. Our chant wasnt together. It was scattered. Out of order. Out of control. No one, even we, who were rambling about our chants, couldnt understand what we were RAMBLING about. What's even worse, our team leader accidently started with the second line of the chant. Well, I hope I dont sound too cruel and mean and cold blooded. However, I am just stating the fact. The sports day was held in a rush. There were only two sports team meetings. It was really put together in a hurry. So the team leaders shouldnt be blamed for it. However, I am just saying that the leaders have a huge responsibility: make our team the best. So, now I'm getting to my point. (Finally.) During PE class, I really wanted to be the leader. (we were playing football, by the way) I knew all the rules, (mostly), thought of many strategies (note: many), thought over this and that (again, many things). Our PE was divided into two teams, and then, we were separated to girls and boys, separately. Our team leader (boys and girls mixed) had chosen a classmate as the leader. However, I really did want to be the leader. Well, the classmate did a good job. But, you know, self esteem? Or worse, ego? Narcissism? Oh well, I have a leadership-y heart (and mind) However, because of the lack of confidence, I didnt argue. I dont really step up and say I want to be the leader. What if our team loses? However, I know now. I re-realized it. If I really wanted to be the leader, then I would have to manage the responsibilites somehow. And somehow get things right. No more, will there be any cases, were I back out of being a leader because I am worried of what would happen if I do something wrong. Screw the people. If they dont like what I'm doing, then step up and say it to my face. I am not going to shrink back EVER AGAIN. Anyone whose like me, step up, LET'S DO THIS.